b4 this i stil fel abt sad but now???

i damn angry abt wat he do to me...
i dun knw wat i did make him said i lie to him but he is damn damn damn bad now...
wat happened? b4 meet v stil ok...but now? i dun knw wat happened at all...(blurrr)
he said me like this bcuz dun wan me disturb him? wat happened? can he tell me clearly?
can he dun like that? i very headache now!! very stress!!!
damn pain!!!
p/s: vny very blur,sad n angry now...
can anyone tell me wat shud i do?

realy realy sad...sucking loving life...

I want to hav sumone
who will be true to me
sumone who will
understand the bratt me
sumone who will
hug me everytime i cry
sumone who will
tell me the story about his day
sumone who will
use his hand cover me when it rains
and lastly i wan to hav sumone
who will love me because of wat i am
NOT because of wat he want me to be


i hide my tear
when i said ur name
but the pain in my heart
is stil the same
although i smile nseem carefree
that is no one that missed u more thn ME

damn damn damn sad!!! fucking fucking idiot!!!

after post the yesterday post thn many thing happened...i knw may b he mind sumthing...i dun knw whether he is play or realy...but im fucking sad now!!! watever he cheating me oso nvm...but i dun knw y b4 that stil didnt tell me abt that...i stil bcuz of him do so much of idiot thing...i fucking idiot nowdays...i dun knw y oso...y i will believe him b4 this...dun knw wat to do d...he cant face me but i cant face to myself...all the secret kep on kep in my heart one day sure will boom out...he lie to me or realy is the girl sms me? stil confused...he didnt make any explain...just said sorry? is that useful? i dun wan sorry just want a explain y he lie to me... after he didnt find me i cant work anymore...kep on seeing my phone...all my coworkers oso knw abt this...all oso waiting the result...all oso waiting wat he will explain to me...but i didnt get any ans from u xcept'sorry'i realy hope get a explain from u...until now didnt ans my call...didnt reply my msg...dun knw y...cant und...i shud accept the faith izit? just let it b? if tell u didnt sad didnt cry is lying...i oso dun knw wat shud do? put down? or stil care abt u? just treat u as normal friends? can i???? alot of question mark in my brain...im damn blur now...

新歌...但很好听...周杰伦－说好的幸福呢

你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
曲周杰伦歌词提供再兴
怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
我都还记得
为什么这时候忍心离我而去☆..
p/s:after listen the song abit touch...wish u all after listen didnt cry...

scary!!! scary!!!

dailure n stomache 4 one week d...at last i go see my m.o...when he press my perut i was push away his hand...nt cuz of geli...is bcuz of painful...i very scare pain want...i wan get shock bcuz he order the nurse to do blood test..omg!! i scare injection til i rather pain til die oso dun wan injection...actually all of the nurse is i knw want...my coworkers...she finding my 'xue guan' i very cabi want...very hard to find...cucuk 3 times oli get the blod...at m.o there hypor 1st time...after that they didnt take the 'zhen' come out anymore..just put a stoper there...omg...it realy realy painful...m.o ask me to admit...that time i refuse n they tell me is very dangerous if i didnt admit...aiyo...i very degil want...i stil dun wan admit...hahax...i rest there until the specialist DR.koh come n see me...the said must admit n he wil call my parents...ok loh...i just folow wat he said...he kep me fasting oso...cuz scare will doing operation after the ultra-sound...the wai kuan gv me an no air-cond room...whole nite cant slp...i walk back to my ward...damn boring...seeing my coworkers eating MCD...i cant eat...but that time im nt hungry...haiz...the suffer life in hosp...so hard oli wait til morning...

i back to WD5 that time they til me very hard to find me...i just kep laughing...cuz they want to do obsevation...just awhile DR koh cum already...he told me that need operation after see the ultra-sound report...omg...that time i very scare... i cry...after few min thn the nurse cum in n told me that i need put drip...haiz...i put drip to ppl many times lah...but ppl help me put drip is 1st times...haiz...it was very painful...cry again loh...i refuse d thn i ask her can dun wan put anot...she said cant...wtf...she said scare me fainted cuz i cant eat...i didnt put oso until i baxk to WD 7a after ultra-sound...

after that all coworkers come in n ask me wat happened...hahax...i oso dun knw how to explain...after that one of my friend come in tell me to change the 'baju operation' that time i very scare...omg...i see ppl wear it thn many time d but i first time wear it...haiz...it ready to operation d...wat i can do? i cant do anything...lucky gt all my coworkers...if nt i knw i will fainted b4 i do the operation...they joking with me...ask the operation threater staff to guess me who m i...sure they dun knw me...cuz i very scare go in there...anywhere i hav to go in oso...

after i go in i bcum more scare...i cry again...haiz...one of the staff in 'ot' i knw want...cuz her mother is my patient last time...an indian man...dun knw his name...but i stil very scare even he kep talking to me...no use want...they see me cry they kep tel me no need to scare...ntg want,just a small operation...4 me how small oso is cut me lah...omg...the 'ma jiu' doc cum in is make me most scare want...cuz it will be start soon...one nurse was kep talk with me...but that time i d hypor again...i dun knw wat i do d...i dun knw wat shud do...just kep on crying...the doc said just relax n look at the light thn will slp d...he said he will gv me an injection...i try to hide my hand that time...cuz i scare injection...he knw d...he told me just put from the drip's tube...nt cuck at hand want...

i see them d ready to do it...scary...the nurse holding my hand til i fully slp...i can fel it...n i cant fel they kep check my blood presure on my 'rt' hand...n checking my pulse at my 'lt' hand 2nd finger...that time realy realy scare...i see a nurse open a yellow colour thing...i cant see it clear but i think is 'gr' lah...'gr' put in my mouth to open my airway...kep me breathing...they put a mask to gv me oxygen...when put 'gr' i d slp...hahax...

when i wake up oli fel pain n my thoart very sweet...like eat sweet when slp...but fel like want to vomit too...i cant tahan the pain n 'ma jiu' nt fully gone...i very slpy but kep said pain...the nurse told me thta she already gv me 2 times pain killer...i just kept slping oli...when they want me to shift to another bed i oso dun wan to move...very slpy n pain...i dun knw how they shif me oso...haha...when i open my eye n fully concious 1st i was seeing is my aunty n all my coworkers...but that time i oso wat to do...stil slpy...that time i oso can drink cant eat anymore...haiz...but with drip wont fel hungry want lah...

but now i fel ok d...thx all the staff n all my friends...thank god to kep me safe...may god bless u all oso...