my silly friends special mushroom...

mushroom back to k.l n will back pnc soon,ahe will back after 6 month..miss her...
here is stupid mushroom n fatimah...

==(L) mushroom~fatihah~,(R) fatimah...
miss them...miss mushroom stupid face...


==tengku fatihah==^^ stupid mushroom^^


@silly mushroom face n cool cool fatimah...


==awi,nurul n zurin==

**awi,mira,kavitha**


friends ship 4ever**

last time at genting's photo... quite funny...even nt dare to play so much...

quite happy over there...i dun knw how to describe..try see the pic n the videos lah...
:)

=my cute n cool cousin=


=see how the cold at outside=


==santa with all my cousin==(p/s: i dislike snap pic one, so i better be camera girl)



*sungai rejang* =damn cold after play water=


==xin yee==

damn boring...damn moody

wat im going to do?
study?
tuition?
working?
blog-ing?
drawing?
listening song?
wat im going to do again?
recently i fel myself is lost d...
driving more fast thn last time...
music more loud...

i didnt change at all...
just that u r nt und me...
i dun knw wat im going to explain to u...
i didnt do wrong...
sumtime when im free u r bc..
sumtime when u r free but im bc...
that is wrong timing 4 us...
when imwith u this all thing wont happened...
when im back to my home all this will be happened...
i will said im chatting with my boy---friends...
i didnt...
i will said im sms or msn with my boy---friends...
i didnt...
wat im going to explain?
cuz u didnt see it, u will easy angry me...
if ur girl---friends call u? wat im going to do or jealous?
wat i can do bcuz her call?
that is ur ex--gf
i knw u didnt love her d...
but i can tell u i didnt do anything too over our limit...
i dun knw wat make us like that
after i go k.l thn u like that d...
i realy duno wat im going to do n explain now...
super super moody:(
now im oli knw wat is the unhapiness after couple..
but im realy love u...

im going to tell myself this...
but i cant do it oso...
cuz it my my deeply n truely love 4 u...
u r my last n forever...
im going to love u forever...bi...
hope u knw that im nt playing the fool with u...

1st experience

new experience...
folow ambulance case...
very excited but abit scare oso
b4 going that i stil duno wat cases is that
as i knw the patient is restless...
i go with mani n yati...one malay one idian,n im the oli chinese...
wakaka...
even no picture 4 that but i can remember it oso...
very hapi to hav the chance to bcum vip...
all the driver gv us the way to go n v no need wait the traffic light..
like sultan come out from istana...
haha...

lan birthday...mp...mp...mp...

fel my friends change alot...
sum of them working...
sum of them study...
thn how abt me?
i dun knw oso...
but im very hapi in the party...
share with u all sum pic...
steamboat at MP...


all of us here but sure the camera man nt here...



b4 v start eat...many food...muahaha



after...all is rubbish...cant waste food 500g per rm 10...kanasai...



lan birthday cake...nice but cant eat more...cuz super full that time...haha

hapi to meet them again, n hope them gud luck n take care
sure wont 4gt the most important thing lah...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LAN..

since long itme didnt update my blog...

i think rdecently im stil ok...but tension loh...haiz...wan go out but cant.. everyday tired...n i cant go 4 he farewel oso...sumore i dun hav the fel to go...kakax...miss them
after that yum cha thn no go out jor loh...
when can go out leh...
damn boring leh...
ah lan birthday coming...
mom birthday cuming...
ah teng birthday cuming...
bear birthday cuming...
wai hung birthday cuming...
sure i bankrap nowdays...
haiz...
everyone worry about the money...
i think i shud save money fromnow...
chinese new year cuming...
hav many thing to buy...
omg...
lagi BANKRAP...
钱不够用....
see the movie thn u will knw HOW MONEY IMPORTANT NOWDAYS...
$$$$$$$$$
i need it....

F5 farewell dinner n ST JOHN 100 ANIVERSARY

shock...y wil hav F5 farewell dinner end of this month?
but may i knw can i go?
i stil dun knw i can go anot...i need the letter they send to me
i realy long itme didnt attent to st john activity
long time didnt wear my st john uniform...
all my badge
my name tag
my special badge
wao this year is st john 100 aniversary, i can attent it with my full uniform...
st john is the best team in yuk choy even in ipoh oso...
i think in many school st john oso is the best team...
Hope ST JOHN will b all the best in everywhere...

his msn name make me abit unhapi n worry about him

"heart broken...but happi.... tear droping... get hurt deeply"
his name from his msn...
even i dun knw wat happened to him, but stil worry him...as i knw he will leave ipoh soon...
i dun knw where he will go
i dun knw he go there 4 wat...
but when i 2gether with him,as wat he tell he going to sg soon n he will work there...
but i dun knw is real anot...
but hope he can get a new life there
hope hehappy oways
hope he take care himself.
hope he will b alright soon
i dun knw wat i can help him
bt i will oways support him...
actualy i very less chart with him...even i chat with him he oso nt realy willing to reply me...
may b is i misunderstanding, but i realy fel this...
haiz...may god blessing him n hope he knw i will support him oways...

P/S: hope u will take good care n hope u will all the best over there

MISS MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE,ST JOHN LIFE

haha...since so long didnt update jor...shud b update everyday...but sure im lazy n i didnt do it..haha...
im damn tired til eye very blur...back pain...leng pain...
wakaka...dun knw y oso...cant und y...
suddenly so miss my friends...long time didnt see them d...


mee ling(my classmate...oways said find me but just gv me empty cek,P/S:dun angry ya..if u see this),my lui(we all said she lost jor...ah mah will so throw watermelon find u back,haha i knw actualy u r safe, just that u bc to working oli),jess(my best friends from standard four til now...haha...thank god that v stil on touch,but i fel u change alot jor),andrew(my hou heng dai,didnt ajak me go yam cha,but i cant go oso lah...)bear(best friends,knw him in st john most friend in st john...P/S:cy nt u is another bear,but same is polar bear),chee meng(v knw each other from standard one same class til standard 6 thn v meet back in st john...long long story),wai kheng(my vice in st john hope she is good now),mei kuan(can said ji mui,but oways rampas my heng dai),wen hao(standard 4 friends,clever n good...haha...zhu dai gor i dun knw wat to say...see jor dun angry ar),wen chin(wen hao sister,twins..nicen good friends),boon hui(hou ji mui in st john,wish her all the beSt in a acoounting life)

COMITTEE 2006-2007


FAREWELL 4 COMMITTEE 2006-2007




ANDREW LEE BIRTHDAY

~kin siew,kar wai,gah wai,siao thung,li teng,chang yee,mang chean,vee hun,khai bin,ka mun,andrew~
(p/s:my good member in st john...under us from 2004 til now...like carry u all out from childish,this social nt realy understand u all so much but as i knw u all r good now...just hope u all the best in spm)


@soh bell, kean hong,jun keat@
(under us 4 quite long time oso...jun keat,dun knw jie can advise u wat...just hope that u take care lah...soh bell n kean hong,the big jor...must take good care all the member in st john...n hope st john will likw last time os active lah...hope u all gid luck n all the best)

haiz suddenly so 'gam chok' tim...miss them alot...find one day go back visit them...
hope to see i all soon...


MEETING TIME...MARCHING TIME


NATIONAL DAY MACHING TEAM...CAN SEE WHERE M I?


STATE COMP TEAM...


SPORT DAY MARCHING TEAM WINNER

i think im okay already

one day he sms me n ask me izit very angry about him...i admit that im very angry when he did it to me...but after few day i fel that im didnt angry much if no one mention about it...may b im abit 4getful...by the way, i hav to said thx to him...he make me fel sad but i get back my happiness, i get back my happiness from my ex...he make me that hav chance with another...even though he knw me n edwin's prob but i fel that he will treat me better thn anyone...i fel that im lucky bcuz wen im sad n angry i stil gt him that accompany me... thx alot but i think that v wont b 2gether loh...i dun knw y...may b i get enuf hurt from love...
edwin thx 4 break with me,cuz i get a new life start now... :)

b4 this i stil fel abt sad but now???

i damn angry abt wat he do to me...
i dun knw wat i did make him said i lie to him but he is damn damn damn bad now...
wat happened? b4 meet v stil ok...but now? i dun knw wat happened at all...(blurrr)
he said me like this bcuz dun wan me disturb him? wat happened? can he tell me clearly?
can he dun like that? i very headache now!! very stress!!!
damn pain!!!
p/s: vny very blur,sad n angry now...
can anyone tell me wat shud i do?

realy realy sad...sucking loving life...

I want to hav sumone
who will be true to me
sumone who will
understand the bratt me
sumone who will
hug me everytime i cry
sumone who will
tell me the story about his day
sumone who will
use his hand cover me when it rains
and lastly i wan to hav sumone
who will love me because of wat i am
NOT because of wat he want me to be


i hide my tear
when i said ur name
but the pain in my heart
is stil the same
although i smile nseem carefree
that is no one that missed u more thn ME

damn damn damn sad!!! fucking fucking idiot!!!

after post the yesterday post thn many thing happened...i knw may b he mind sumthing...i dun knw whether he is play or realy...but im fucking sad now!!! watever he cheating me oso nvm...but i dun knw y b4 that stil didnt tell me abt that...i stil bcuz of him do so much of idiot thing...i fucking idiot nowdays...i dun knw y oso...y i will believe him b4 this...dun knw wat to do d...he cant face me but i cant face to myself...all the secret kep on kep in my heart one day sure will boom out...he lie to me or realy is the girl sms me? stil confused...he didnt make any explain...just said sorry? is that useful? i dun wan sorry just want a explain y he lie to me... after he didnt find me i cant work anymore...kep on seeing my phone...all my coworkers oso knw abt this...all oso waiting the result...all oso waiting wat he will explain to me...but i didnt get any ans from u xcept'sorry'i realy hope get a explain from u...until now didnt ans my call...didnt reply my msg...dun knw y...cant und...i shud accept the faith izit? just let it b? if tell u didnt sad didnt cry is lying...i oso dun knw wat shud do? put down? or stil care abt u? just treat u as normal friends? can i???? alot of question mark in my brain...im damn blur now...

新歌...但很好听...周杰伦－说好的幸福呢

你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
曲周杰伦歌词提供再兴
怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
我都还记得
为什么这时候忍心离我而去☆..
p/s:after listen the song abit touch...wish u all after listen didnt cry...

scary!!! scary!!!

dailure n stomache 4 one week d...at last i go see my m.o...when he press my perut i was push away his hand...nt cuz of geli...is bcuz of painful...i very scare pain want...i wan get shock bcuz he order the nurse to do blood test..omg!! i scare injection til i rather pain til die oso dun wan injection...actually all of the nurse is i knw want...my coworkers...she finding my 'xue guan' i very cabi want...very hard to find...cucuk 3 times oli get the blod...at m.o there hypor 1st time...after that they didnt take the 'zhen' come out anymore..just put a stoper there...omg...it realy realy painful...m.o ask me to admit...that time i refuse n they tell me is very dangerous if i didnt admit...aiyo...i very degil want...i stil dun wan admit...hahax...i rest there until the specialist DR.koh come n see me...the said must admit n he wil call my parents...ok loh...i just folow wat he said...he kep me fasting oso...cuz scare will doing operation after the ultra-sound...the wai kuan gv me an no air-cond room...whole nite cant slp...i walk back to my ward...damn boring...seeing my coworkers eating MCD...i cant eat...but that time im nt hungry...haiz...the suffer life in hosp...so hard oli wait til morning...

i back to WD5 that time they til me very hard to find me...i just kep laughing...cuz they want to do obsevation...just awhile DR koh cum already...he told me that need operation after see the ultra-sound report...omg...that time i very scare... i cry...after few min thn the nurse cum in n told me that i need put drip...haiz...i put drip to ppl many times lah...but ppl help me put drip is 1st times...haiz...it was very painful...cry again loh...i refuse d thn i ask her can dun wan put anot...she said cant...wtf...she said scare me fainted cuz i cant eat...i didnt put oso until i baxk to WD 7a after ultra-sound...

after that all coworkers come in n ask me wat happened...hahax...i oso dun knw how to explain...after that one of my friend come in tell me to change the 'baju operation' that time i very scare...omg...i see ppl wear it thn many time d but i first time wear it...haiz...it ready to operation d...wat i can do? i cant do anything...lucky gt all my coworkers...if nt i knw i will fainted b4 i do the operation...they joking with me...ask the operation threater staff to guess me who m i...sure they dun knw me...cuz i very scare go in there...anywhere i hav to go in oso...

after i go in i bcum more scare...i cry again...haiz...one of the staff in 'ot' i knw want...cuz her mother is my patient last time...an indian man...dun knw his name...but i stil very scare even he kep talking to me...no use want...they see me cry they kep tel me no need to scare...ntg want,just a small operation...4 me how small oso is cut me lah...omg...the 'ma jiu' doc cum in is make me most scare want...cuz it will be start soon...one nurse was kep talk with me...but that time i d hypor again...i dun knw wat i do d...i dun knw wat shud do...just kep on crying...the doc said just relax n look at the light thn will slp d...he said he will gv me an injection...i try to hide my hand that time...cuz i scare injection...he knw d...he told me just put from the drip's tube...nt cuck at hand want...

i see them d ready to do it...scary...the nurse holding my hand til i fully slp...i can fel it...n i cant fel they kep check my blood presure on my 'rt' hand...n checking my pulse at my 'lt' hand 2nd finger...that time realy realy scare...i see a nurse open a yellow colour thing...i cant see it clear but i think is 'gr' lah...'gr' put in my mouth to open my airway...kep me breathing...they put a mask to gv me oxygen...when put 'gr' i d slp...hahax...

when i wake up oli fel pain n my thoart very sweet...like eat sweet when slp...but fel like want to vomit too...i cant tahan the pain n 'ma jiu' nt fully gone...i very slpy but kep said pain...the nurse told me thta she already gv me 2 times pain killer...i just kept slping oli...when they want me to shift to another bed i oso dun wan to move...very slpy n pain...i dun knw how they shif me oso...haha...when i open my eye n fully concious 1st i was seeing is my aunty n all my coworkers...but that time i oso wat to do...stil slpy...that time i oso can drink cant eat anymore...haiz...but with drip wont fel hungry want lah...

but now i fel ok d...thx all the staff n all my friends...thank god to kep me safe...may god bless u all oso...

right here waiting..

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter
I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy
I wonder how we can survive this romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy
waiting for you~

i'm sad cuz he 4gt it d...

im getting shock cuz he was 4gt the song i send to him...im missing my dad alot...wat can i do? i dun knw oso...although i knw he stil care me...but i realy cant control myself...wat can i do? i realy dun knw...!!!!!!haiz...last nite i ask him to sing that song to me again...but he told me that he 4gt d...i intro him a song...but im sad that time...i dun kn i can find who to tell out all this...haiz...

下一个天亮

用起伏的背影 挡住哭泣的心
有些故事 不必说给 每个人听
许多眼睛 看的太浅太近
错过我没被看见 那个自己

用简单的言语 解开超载的心
有些情绪 是该说给 懂的人听
你的热泪 比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力 更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

用简单的言语 解开超载的心
有些情绪 是该说给 懂的人听
你的热泪 比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力 更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

时间可以磨去我的棱角
有些坚持却永远磨不掉
请容许我 小小的骄傲
因为有你这样的依靠

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂
等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

sorry blame it on me..that nt ur wrong...

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I've done things that haven't occurred yet
and things that they don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know

That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my sons
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there

Because I'm in the streets like everyday
I'm sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
I'm sorry that you had to go and sell those bags
Just trying to stay busy until you heard from dad

When you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn't agree

He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief

I'm sorry that I grew up way to fast
I wish I would of listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry that your life turned out this way
I'm sorry that the feds came and took me away

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
But they were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani

I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
And for the embarrassment that she felt
She's just a little young girl trying to have fun
But daddy should of never let her out that young

I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say

Why doesn't anybody want to take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I'll take that blame

Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
I'll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

that why u go away...the 1st song i send to U

baby, won't you tell me why?
there is sadness in your eyes
i don't wanna say 'goodbye' to you
love is one big illusion
i should try to forget
but there's something left in my head
you're the one who set it up
and you're the one to make it stop
i'm the one who's feeling lost right now
now you wanted to forget
every little thing you said
but there's something left in my head
i won't forget the way your kiss is
the feeling so strong
we'll last for so long
but i'm not the man
your heart is missing
that's why you go away, i know
you were never satisfied
no matter how i tried
now you wanna say 'goodbye' to me
love is one big illusion
i should try to forget
but there's something left in my head
i won't forget the way your kiss is
the feeling so strong
we'll last for so long
but i'm not the man
your heart is missing
that's why you go away, i know
sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
don't know which way to go
there ain't so much to say now between us
there ain't so much for you
there ain't so much for me anymore
i won't forget the way your kiss is
the feeling so strong
we'll last for so long
but i'm not the man
your heart is missing
that's why you go away, i know
that's why you go away, i know

v wont d in parade day...happy...

even i didnt go but i can felt the happiness...n/c are the best...i tot v will lose in nursing team..but now they told me they was win...happy...lolx...a/a sure win want no ned me wory geh...but a/c jao abit gek sum...let the team i most hate win jor idiot poi lam...marching like shit stil win...arghh!!! im so happy that u all shang shing jor...no need other worry jor...but i hope to join icc camp...y no one come ask me geh? at 2005 i d said i wan jin n i promise my team leader in national cadet camp i will join...sob...m i stil a cadet? actualy im adult 3rd year jor...but i stil 18 oli so im stil a cadet this is last year 4 me loh...haiz...hope can join it lah...i knw it is nice...s'gor officer told me that,that camp gt go k.l gai gai want...long time didnt shopping liao...i hope to see back all my other state geh friends oso...pang,my didi keong, kenneth ng,swee wai(sir ho) same name with my danny gor gor...lolx,calvin ng,lee weng foo,fu zai,kelvin tan,ykp,gt alot lah...haiz...hope to meet them again...miss my daddy alot ar...(my love will get you home) dun knw wat to do oso...oways think negatively n scold by gor(chin yang) i knw he scold me is 4 my own good...but i just stil the same...i cant change oso...i dun kn wy lah...i just will sms with him all the times...stil very very lovbe him...i think he knw oso lah...but he just can treat me as his sis loh...he oways told me that it wont change but i dun knw how oso lah...just hope he will knw tat loh...i gt try to accept other but the fact stil the same...haiz...anywhere they wont jor i very hapy oso lah...our duty hour stil get the 1st!!! yeah!!!one division can duty more thn 50000 hours...geng ar..!!!love them very much...remember the kou hao v hav...i stil remember abit jek...lolx...4gtful...haha...hope i can see u all ler...

moody dayz...

ex bf chasing again? shud i accept him??? i dun knw oso...didnt ans him...very moody...dun knw wat to do oways...boring til moody...lolx...ntg can do over here..just eat,slp,online,chit chat...no more others...this year de life is meaningless...from the start til now...doing ntg oways...even get my lesen...but they nt allowed i drive...gt car oso no use...cant drive out...so boring lah...wat i can do...everyday so chat with him...but dun knw y i dun hav last time that fel...i chat with him when i was doing ntg...but that time he sure is busying...haiz...nt 'yam' timing...last time i chat with ubi(my officer in st john ambulance) he told me that my member very useless...once i listen i getting shock...flag day they want to sold 30000 sticker...lolx...thay tot thy are sticker promoter...the truth is cant sell finish...when flag day need to use the money that ppl derma to buy all the sticker...lolx...this year derma de money oli hav rm 3000 lolx...my spec already drop down...n it already spoil....1st times like that...so many year in st john 1st times like that...izit i shud scold them? ubi ask them y didnt told me this...they said scare getting scold wor...lolx...do until like that stil scare ppl scold...sumore v found out that 2 ppl was 'eating' money in our school...now v hav to found out few way to make him gv us the account book to see...i hope to fire this kind of useless ppl out of my division...hope will found out wat going on of the account...

at last v break loh...break on 17 july b4 my birthday...

break with ason...stil gt abt nt willing but ntg i can do...quite happy in my birthday...dun knw wat to say...long time didnt update my blog...cuz i think it dun hav anyone to view...it just like let me said out my unhapiness n hapiness...

after my exam but i bcum pengawai ukur tanah...issh!!!

damn boring here...oways doing ntg...wake up.online.gaming.eating.offline.slp.wake up.online again...everthing oso do the same thing...but this few day i meet alot of new friends in freindster...they quite nice...many topic v can chat...many thing v can joke...but v didnt joke too over...haha...abit happy when chat with them...last time when i online oso doing ntg...so long times didnt online until this few day i oways online...hahaha....dun knw hav wat to tell u all oso...haha...this few day quite 'siao'...but i knw i miss them alot...i long times didnt find them to come out d...last nite my best friends asking me izit lost in the world...didnt find them d...actualy i dun knw find them 4 wat...wan going out oso waste money just siting at kopitiam chit-chat 4 long time...issshh...boring...

after my exam d...

this month i fel i no more mood d...very moody...i dun knw y oso...y will bcum like that? after exam i shud happy wert? but y i stil wil fel moddy? wat happened to me? i fel i very less chat with ason...our relationship bcum far n far away...his friendster bcum no more comment...i asking myself...izit realy liek him or that time i fel lonely oli promise will 2gether with him? is that real love? i didnt get the ans...cuz i realy dun knw... v long time didnt talk n contact...until yesterday i reload...i call him...but i dun hav last time taht mood to talk n joke with him...y will like that? or wat i fel is real? wat i shud do now? izit break with him???
i dun wan to hurt him...wat i can do? i fel he realy like me... i not willing to hurt him but wat i can do? except break wat i stil can do???
b4 exam i fel very stress until 2day...even i not more stress but i worry my result...if i realy cant get credit wat i can do on my future? very confused...i dislike study...but i dislike working too...wanna die...realy realy stress...

ason...i fel our relationship bcum far n far away...

ason...this few day v less chat d...after i work thn v less sms n msn...at night just talk 4 awhile...if u go out with friends d v didnt talk oso...our distance too far away d...i dun knw shud break with u anot...i dun wan to hurt u at all...but wat i shud do now? i fel v shud nt continue like that...in real v just a couple that didnt see b4 n just chat in net n on phone...just like net friends...but i dun knw y that day will promise u to be ur gf...confused..i didnt regret to be ur gf..but the fact is v too far away...1 is from klang but i stay in ipoh...too less to meet...shud v break? i remember one times u tell me that u fel our relation like fake...that time i realy hurt...but now i oli knw it is realy...like fake...just said in sms n msn...but in real life u didnt see me b4...like that just will make each other more suffer...u need to work n need to take care ur friends n family...but u hav no time to come ipoh...i realy confused with this...ason, i think v hav to think carefuly about our relationship...v shud break or just continue like that u decide lah...

7th may 2008...

early in the mornign i wake up n go to having breakfast with my mom...suddenly my mom tell my aunt my hapii zai was get cancer...thn i ask my mom wat cancer he get...that is blood cancer...as i know,4 human blood cancer will recover if hav suitable bone narrow...but 4 pet i dun knw... after that i ask my mom where hapii zai hospital...i wan go visit him...after i decide to visit him thn i go to work i decide this sunday mean 11th may to visit him...but when 11.47am...my sis sms me n told me hapii zai was pass away...i get a shock...thn i reply her impossible...thn she said:"uncle chang told me just now" uncle chang actualy is hapii zai de real owner oso my dad friend...he gv us hapii zai but he oways come to ipoh n see him...this is frist time i gt my pet but he was leave me...damn pain in my heart...whole day i sitting at my counter...my eyes was red...i sitting there quiet...i cant do anything even talk...i scare to touch my phone oso...cuz inside my phone gt his pic n playing car de video...he was cute...i miss him...but i cant see his pic i scare i will cry out at my working place...ntg i can do...just tahan til home...when i back to my room...i look at my phone thn i cry out d...realy hurt...at night b4 slp i act i dun knw about hapii zai was death..i ask my 2nd sis when hapii zai back? she asking me back...u duno meh...he was death...thn i ask her y, n she told me all...thn she told me uncle chang tell 1st sis that a gud dog wont die front of owner..after i listen this i stop sad cuz i knw my hapii zai so clever n care abt us...i must not sad to make him cant rest in peace...word 4 hapii zai...even u death but in my heart u r alive 4ever...no one can take ur place...

what happened to him this few day???

omg...this few day fel he怪怪。。。wat happened to him? so scare me will rugi with my bf...in msn oways gv me kiss kiss...he knw i oli treat him like god brother...i oli my god brother lah...i dun knw wat shud do...shud i ask him??? i scare will make him 尴尬...wat shud i do...he knw i hav bf d...confused...last time when ppl dun knw us thn will said v r couple...but actualy v oli sister n brother...i just treat him as my bro...friends oways ask us 2gether...but he knw n i knw loh...even i slp one bad with him...but that night many ppl wont hav anything happened oso...haiz...wat shud do??? this few day owys chat n he oways said miss me n gv kiss...haiz...i oli like my bf...andrew...i'm sorry if u love me i realy wont 2gether with u cuz i oli wan him...v too friend d...too 了解 each other

dun knw y this few day like listen this kind of song....fel very meaningful

每一次都在徘徊孤单中坚强
每一次就算很受伤也不闪泪光
我知道我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞飞过绝望
不去想他们拥有美丽的太阳
我看见每天的夕阳也会有变化
我知道我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞给我希望
我终于看到所有梦想都开花
追逐的年轻歌声多嘹亮
我终于翱翔用心凝望不害怕
哪里会有风就飞多远吧

不去想他们拥有美丽的太阳
我看见每天的夕阳也会有变化
我知道我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞给我希望
我终于看到所有梦想都开花
追逐的年轻歌声多嘹亮
我终於翱翔用心凝望不害怕
哪里会有风就飞多远吧
隐形的翅膀让梦恒久比天长
留一个愿望让自己想像

27-4-2008------28-4-2008

fel moody...haiz...
wat happened to me???
izit he change or i change d?
y i fel he nt like last time when v start 2gether???
haiz~
when he birthday v stil like normal n fel ok...
y after birthday he will change d??? or not he change is me???
CONFUSED!!!
wat i should do???
when morning...im busy~
after he sms me i reply him thn i didnt chat with him until i free...
that day morning state com...quite busy...at last cant hav chance competition in national team...
disappointed!!
i d try my best cuz i knw if i go national com i can see him~
national com will at K.L
but i d try my best i still cant
when i back home...raining heavily...i walk back to my home...
all cloth basah...
didnt tell him oso
after eating my dinner n bath thn i call him...when i call him, 1st call he said dun call him he bc...i cant listen clear,thn he terus close...i call the second times..he tell me he at cc...SHOCK!!!
just now said bc but now at cc...
haiz~last time when he go out with friends he will tell me...izit i too care him???izit i 'bang' him d???
he tell me he dislike ppl control him too much~
haiz~
wat i should do???


28-4-2008
early in the morning...i wake up n go out walk walk...thn go buy birthday present 4 him...walk so many place d...but stil cant buy... very tired d...cuz slp nt wel...after 10.30am i tot he wake up d...thn i call him, cuz i wan ask him change other colour can anot...i wan ask him cuz i scare i buy it he will dislike...
i call the 1st times...he didnt ans...after 1 hour...i call the second times...he said he at ktv...one more SHOCK again!!!i ask him y just now didnt ans my cal he said he at ktv n phone set silent d...so didnt listen to it...
omg!!!haiz...i ask him when back home...he said 12.++pm
thn i wwait till that time...when i call him he said stil havent back...i wait again...wait til omost 1.++pm he said he at friend's shop...n i call him n chat with him...i fel v nt suitable 2gether...in phone he kep on ask me izit gt anything wan said to him...i kep on ask him he fel wat i wan to said to him...but he said he dun knw...i oso dun knw wat i shud said...very confused...he said he need freedom....he said like that izit mean that i too control him???wat i shud do???all his thing i no need care d??he said he need his friends...i didnt said nt allowed he 2gether with his friends cuz i knw im nt beseides him...when he was unhapi he need to find his frends to play n relax...at last i didnt tell out the two word...cuz i knw i realy put my ful heart to love him...at night...after chat thn he go shopping at k.l...thn i wait him back..when he back home n we chat again i fel better d...now v like last times...i fel myself cant dun hav him...i realy love him with my ful heart...

ngo 2008

proud...the 1st times get nursing team n ambulance team oso get 3rd
the 2nd times our nursing team get 2nd n ambulance team get 1st...
lst year ngo make me very angry n i denda them til very 'gou li'
this year i didnt go back n train them but i gt see the movie...realy nice...but in the bus there gt abit paiseh thing...y the new 'kou hao' so geli one...
this year ngo competition at smk buntong...( actualy i dun knw where oso...just knw that is a place)LOLX
omg the headmaster oso crazy with u all...
haha...abit happy cuz u all can get this marching again n again...last times v hav to join other unit at school now oli st john~
in yuk choy i hope st john is the best init beruniform...
u all did it very year graduation st john oso get the award ( pasukan yang terbaik)
very proud...all the best YUK CHOY ST JOHN!!!!
the link of ngo video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NRqDe6Q-cKk

2008 agm~

new headmaster...i didnt go the agm...i slp late d...4gt it ba...visitor want knw about our division is how de thn see the video... very gek sum...when i see the video...when in the post 'senang diri' n wearing full uniform can talk n 'you lei you hui' like shit!!! when taking group photo can take up the hand!!!stil gt member making his button!!!n showing bad finger!!!but nt all member like that... i realy angry with the video...
see the movie at here this link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JH7Xj2ArTBk

my new ajk cuming out d...

my new ajk~
gt abit worry~when i knw it long times ago~but now i oli write it~


Pengerusi:har kean hong
Naib pengerusi:isabell
Setiausaha:foong han lyn ,foo yien hui
Bendahari:hu shian min
Ketua disiplin:Andrew lam
Ketua rekod:chow joo gin, lai wei wei
Duty master:lee joon keat, ou xue wei
Ketua stor:cheong kam seng, shum chun fai
Ketua papan kenyataan:phong hong mei
Jurulatih :1)shum chun fai
2)Lai wei wei
3)Andrew lam
4)Foo yien hui
Social:shin shy weng
Ajk:1)choy kah keat
2)phong hong mei

my new ajk list...every year choose de new ajk oso like geting shock~ i didnt go the agm~cuz i 4gt d...sorry f5 committe~ even my farewel oso didnt go~ about the farewel u all hav to ask my president y i dun go~ think back i very angry the social~ ddamn post~ like stupid~ wat i teach she all 4gt d!!!
dun care it wat function, must contact all member of our division~cant care abt ur phone fees! take the bil 4 me can charge it back!!! she didnt call at all!!! oli send letter! if letter can get thn sure die d!!!dun wan go cuz she didnt done her job!!! letter i oli get it after farewel, i knw oso dun wan go d...disapointed~~

hope this year de social 'xing xing ding ding'

last year gt many complain!!! arghh!!!
1st function after i take leave~
ngo marching competition~(president)!!!
nt enuf ppl find us to help them match
ok i ask all my buddy help them to match, when they gv opinion thn ask us shut up!!!
b4 thinking out the matching as us to think!!!
tot v r wat? need our help thn 'yao ngei you sei' after help them thn treat us like wat!!!!
senior?? ex committe!!!treat us like shit oli!!!
treat wat v talk like 'fat ngap fong'
so clever thn dun find us when gt any problem!!!

2nd!!! annual parade!!!
social!!!
ask me need call who to back...need how many team 4 one division
v gt 4 division sure is 4 team lah!!!
one team 30 ppl A/a nt enuf ppl mai call A/a de senior loh...n/a impossible nt enuf ppl thn go call n/a de ppl!! which nt enuf thn dun call!!! which enuf de go call them back to 'bai leng' meh!!!
ask her do her job better i take back all thing n do myself!!!
a/c n n/c impossible nt enuf ppl thn do do so much of thing!!!
when officer 'zha ying' thn push to ex committe didnt teach!!!
thn make me getting scold again!!!
wat kind of 'cha siu'
nt i do wrong at all but getting scold!!!

3rd function!!!
area comp!!!
tot who m i!!! no a/a no need tell me???
need exam thn dun wan go
suddenly 'fong fei gei'
a/c change all the ppl
no name list 4 me!!!
lose til 'da bao'

4rd thing!!!
officer n senior all complain!!!
y agm committe list didnt gv them!! booklet didnt gv!!!
all said y i didnt teach u all how to do!!!
wan me how to ans???
u all dun listen to my word???
how they will ans me???
cuz i too 'qian jiu' u all
u all wan how i sure let
wan play when meeting , i didnt said anything!!! infront of member oso play!!!
member how to think!!!
committe oso no disiplin y v hav to do so!!!
finer nail long til can kill ppl!!!
when check thn said i will cut when back home...when next meeting stil the same!!!
half u is st john t-shirt,long pants in black colour, n black palas shoe, n BLACK SHOCK!!!nt white!!!
y i can see commitee wear white shock!!!y i can see camp shirt when meeting!!! with other colour!!! st john t-shirt oli white colour!!! purple...grey...like unit beruniform meh!!! oli like shit!!!

no eye to see!!!
hope this year de ajk dun make me dispointed d!!
if stil like that i wont care all this again!!!
dun ask me go back to b u all de officer...
if nt i will gv u all 'gam shang gek sei'