Thursday, December 24, 2009

long time didnt update

quite long didnt update...quite many thing happened...very verl long story...got happy de got unhapy thing oso...lolx...i dun know wat to write d....so lame...lolx!!!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

my mood become more worst n worst...

actually what i need?
i'm keep asking the same question in all the second...
can anyone tell me?
i hope to get lost from here...!!!

Sunday, November 15, 2009

suddenly very sad...

he say he cant accept i care him more...he say i treat him too good...he no right to hav it...what i can do?
izit i care him oso wrong?
i duno what to say and what to tell...
haiz...so many days didnt slp jor!!!

Monday, November 9, 2009

anger!!!!

recently de me getting worse...=.=
what i am doing recently??
doing nothing...
lolx...
one nigh i on my msn via phone and got one girl tell me weird thing...
she is the onei love the most's gf....
but that night she ask me...:"your gor didnt tell you meh?"
i think for few minutes...:wat my gor should tell me?
i ask her back...she tell me:"your gor already broke up with me"
i get shock...
i duno why they will broke up...
he didnt tell me oso...then i still so stupid ask her don be sad and try toask her to be happy...
what the f*ck i doing?
i ask her to be happy back?
then she tell me is she wnt to broke with him...
omg...she not very love him meh?
why she want broke with him...
that time still tell me when he 21 years old will married her...omg
suddenly she send me she very hate me!!! that time i very confuse=.=
what i did make her to angry me?
did i make them broke?
now is she want to broke up...what for she want to hate me?
she really a fucker cause angry non-sense!!!
when she pmr i still send her tips for exam...i stil try to help her...
she like not believe and that is a lot to study n she ask me dont play the joke
wat the hell she say!!!
i play the joke?!
i just dont want my gor got a stupid gf!!!
this kind of girl throw to dustbin oso no one want to recycle lah!!!
huiyo!!!
i damn angry her!!! i more hate her then she hate me!!!
if not my gor i wont look stupid and didnt fight back loh!!! sure got one day i will balas dendam want...

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

vny didnt recovery...is getting worse...

i dun wan live because of u!!!
i wan live for myself

Monday, July 6, 2009

sorry to everyone...

sory...
vny will very less update
vny only will update when i fully recovery from him...
wish all friend all the best...
==take care all my friends==

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

告诉他好象也是我的错

昨天在我开MSN的时候,我看见他女友的MSN DISPLAY WORD 写着 I WAN PLAY WITH SEX,BUT I WOULD'NT LET THEM IN...
假如当时是你看见这样东西,你会想什么?
老实说,她给我第一个印象就已经是不好的。。。
但他喜欢啊。。。我还能做什么?
我真的不懂了。。。
挣扎了很久,终于告诉了他,这难道也是我的错?
他女朋友解释说,那这是一件衣服的字,她觉得有趣所以就写上去。。。
你们相信有这样的衣服吗?
穿上去,难道你要让人知道你是多么开放的?
昨天我做了很多自己也想像不到的东西,清醒过后才知道。。。
很后悔告诉他。。。我让我们之间建多了一幅墙。。。
这时让我不想放弃也难。。。
喝了好多的啤酒。。。但没有发泄,让不开心的想的更多。。。

Thursday, June 11, 2009

wanna to tell u sumthing...can i?

vny fel wan tell u that three word...
but did u accept it?
did u will back to vny?
u only will tell vny that is impossible...
until today vny stil waiting...
waiting u say yes...
but is that waiting u will back to vny...
the time cant make vny forget...
just make vny miss the past...
vny cant even forget a little thing...
this oso is a IMPOSSIBLE for vny to forget u...
vny hope one day u will back to vny...
start 23th sept 2007 vny already think this...
but now is 2009...
it is totally 2 years...
u still didnt back vny anymore...
vny dun knw vny stil can do wat...
vny heart totally death from the word IMPOSSIBLE from your mouth...
vny very disapointed n vny will give up soon...
vny kept like that better i go a place that very far from u...
vny can miss u without u know about it...
vny can love u without telling you...
vny can do wat vny like without any CANT from u...
may b vny can stay there with alot of happiness...
say bye to to the one vny love...
say bye to the one vny most care...
say bye to the one vny miss in vny's life...

Friday, May 29, 2009

+|+ 吃醋的感觉 +|+

有拍过拖的人或曾经有过喜欢的人
都有过 吃醋 感觉吧
注 : 不是拿来吃那种醋

男人吃的话
就会乱发脾气
对女人做什么都不对。

女人的话
就是瞎猜测
生闷气等等


吃醋 是什么感觉呢
心理酸酸的
很想哭 觉得很委屈


也是内心的一种别扭的感觉吧。
看到自己喜欢的人和别人在一起很快乐
会感觉很难受
很不甘心
希望自己是那个他/她。

可以说是恋爱中的嫉妒与占有欲
希望对方只在乎自己
一再一再地想证明他/她最爱的唯一的人是自己
这不期然可以说是一种虚荣
或是自尊心作祟。

虚荣心强的或是自尊心过度的人若是看开一点
豁达一点
会比较好哟。


当听到喜欢的人要去见其他的异性朋友,

心里就有一种莫名的感觉,

也感觉不出来是不是酸的,

反正心里总是不塌实
老是内个劲的
你就吃醋感觉了



吃醋说明是在乎他
什么事情都觉得酸酸的`
心里也特别不舒服


看到他你会心跳
看到他和别人…
你会吃醋
你会难受
证明你在意他
也证明你喜欢上他/她了



说也不是很清楚

何不自己试试

当你朋友跟别的异性亲近时

你老觉得
他有什么好的
心里老是想着他
怕被别人抢去

兄台 你吃醋了



吃的越厉害
就是越喜欢

还有一种就是占有欲了


吃醋是男女之间感情的波动
是一种爱的表现
不要以为吃醋是女人的专利
男人也很会吃醋的
有人说女人比较小气
所以比较爱吃醋
其实不然
只是女人比较
藏不住心思
比较容易喜怒形于色。



温柔型的女生
吃醋的时候就是心里觉得很酸啊
但是还没有表现的很明显
看见喜欢的人和别的女生说话或者关系很好的时候
都是假装不在乎
其实心里生气着呢

但是喜欢的人只要哄两句就又没什么了

不过男生还挺喜欢看女生吃醋的
觉得挺可爱的 ^^


而男人大多把心事放在心底
其实在他们心底
他们总希望自己是所爱女人的唯一。


在感情领域里
不管是男是女
只要爱着对

总会计较一些小事
有些莫非其妙的举动
这就是吃醋的表现
也是爱的表现。





其实这一些都是生活中的小事
虽然有时候对方吃醋时语气会不好
但是换个角度想一想
对方是因为爱你才吃醋的
心中就会有甜蜜感
其实有人吃醋也是一种幸
福的感觉。


所以在对方吃醋的时候给他一个怀抱
给他一个笑容
那些无理取闹的小动作就会变成一种情趣
所有的委屈也会烟消云散。

朋友们你
吃醋了吗….

我不喜欢吃醋感觉

但是这种感觉不能避免
嘿啊!( HATE AH)

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

agree?

*Love.

What is that thing called love?
Some people believe it's a gift from god,
Other say it brings nothing but pain.
Maybe it is one way train,
That you couldn't come back again.
Maybe is just like the rain,
You never know how hard it would be and how long it will be.
How could a small word hold so many maybe?
A small word but many question marks?
It's such a complicated feeling that confused me.
Love is so precious,
Love is so treasure,
Love is caring,
Love is daring,
and most of all, love is sharing.
True love doesn't have a happy ending because true love never end.
I meet my love since the day I started the love,
The day that much memorable.
Before everything happening I'm just still alone living in a lonely world.
Without her,
I won't appear in here.
Although how much I do,
It won't enough.
Because Love is never enough.

*Forever.

What is that thing called forever?
Is it with the one you love till the end of the world?
When would the earth end?
You can sure that you will forever with your loves one?
For me,
I just will do my best to her,
If anything happened.
I wouldn't regret!
Because I had done everything I had to do.
Although I'm not perfect,
but I can make love be perfect!
I doesn't mind anything,
Just I can have the day with her,
It's already enough to me.
I love you, my loves.

wat is love? izit real?

* Love it's just like a bubble gum,
when it stick on your heart,
it so hard to remove,
Just like how you stay in my heart,
here and everywhere.
There is no one in the whole world that makes me feel this way.
By the way,
It is not being in love that makes me happy...
but is being in love with YOU that makes me happy.
I will love you until my heart stops beating.
I just had to let you know... you're the best!
I love you!

已经死了

已经死了,下半辈子不想再做人了,有一条路叫黄泉路,有一条河叫忘川,河上有一座桥叫奈何桥,走过奈何桥有个士台叫望乡台,望乡台边有个老人卖孟婆茶,忘川边有个石头叫三生石,孟婆茶叫你忘记一切,三生石记载你的前世今生,我们走过奈何桥,在望乡台看最后一眼人间,喝一杯忘川水煮的孟婆茶,于是。。。。。。。

Monday, May 25, 2009

who you care about now?

世界上最傻的人是不在乎他(她)眼裡有沒有自己卻還是願意去為他(她)付出

世界上最傻的人是不讓他(她)知道自己喜歡著他(她)還愛他(她)愛的要死

世界上最傻的人是去對一段永遠都不能會有結果的人付出自己的真心

世界上最傻的人是明知道他(她)眼中沒有自己還是死心踏地的愛著

世界上最傻的人是他(她)可以沒有自己自己卻還是不能沒有他(她)

世界上最傻的人是愛的苦愛的痛愛的累卻還要堅持去愛他(她)

世界上最傻的人是明明他(她)就在妳的咫尺邊卻還是不告白

世界上最傻的人是心裡不願意還是會誠心祝福他(她)幸福

世界上最傻的人是讓自己的他(她)投入別人的懷抱裡去

世界上最傻的人是忍住相思苦不去表現給他(她)知道

世界上最傻的人是永遠只會看著他(她)和別人快樂

世界上最傻的人是掩飾自己對他(她)的情感不說

世界上最傻的人是不在乎自己會傷的有多麼重

世界上最傻的人是在乎他(她)到底快不快樂

世界上最傻的人是只會關心著他(她)事情

世界上最傻的人是不求他(她)回報自己

世界上最傻的人是只會一廂情願的人

世界上最傻的人是愛他(她)說不出口


人總是要在失去了之後,

才會知道對方是多麼的重要,

但在發現之後,

也沒有辦法可以去挽回了。

..世界上最傻的人..,

如果他(她)他这辈子爱的是她(他)而不是你时,

你会用一辈子的时间等他(她)

at night ur phone is on for who?

女孩有个很要好的男朋友,两个人不见面的時候,就打打电话或发发短信,大家都喜欢这样的联络方式。
有一天夜里,男孩很想念女孩子,打了过去却关机,因为女孩子已经睡著了。第二天,男孩对女孩子说:“以后晚上不要关机,好吗?我想你的時候找不到你,心会不安。”

从那以后,女孩开始另一种习惯整夜都不关机。
因为害怕他打來自己会因睡著而听不到,女孩夜夜都很警醒,人便日日消瘦。
然而,慢慢地,两個人之间还是有了裂痕。
女孩很想挽回即临分手的局面,便在一个深夜里給男孩打电話,
回答她的是很好听的女声:sorry,你所拨打的电话已关机。  
于是女孩知道,她的爱情已经关机。

很久以后,女孩有了另一场爱情。
即使两个人在一起的感觉也很好,但女孩怎么也不肯嫁。
女孩的心里还是会想起那个男孩的话和那个关机的夜晚。
女孩还是保持著整夜不关机的习惯,只是不再期待它會响起。
一天夜裡,女孩身染急症,慌亂之中把本想撥給父母的電話,卻打通了這個男孩的電話,這個男孩沒关機。
女孩平安地恢復了健康。
後來女孩問男孩:“為什麼深夜還不关機?”
男孩說:“我怕你夜裡有事情找不到我,會心慌。”
女孩最終嫁給了男孩。
是啊,你的手機,深夜裡為誰開?
你會不會怕她找不到而心慌,愛一個人,有一份等待,就會在深夜裡習慣性的開機。
有一個可以開機等候你的人,那是一種深深的幸福

Friday, May 22, 2009

你知道吗?爱情使人忘记时间...时间也使人忘记爱情...

原来...
世上最凄楚的距离
是两人本来的距离很远,互不相识...
忽然有一天他们相识了...
相爱的距离变得很近...
后来有一天,不再相爱了...
本来很近的两个人...
变得很远,甚至比以前更远...
你知道吗?
爱情使人忘记时间...
时间也使人忘记爱情...

如果...
情感和岁月也能轻轻撕碎,丢到海中...
那么我愿意从此就在海底沉默...
你的言语,我爱听,却不懂得...
我的沉默,你看见,却不明白...

其实...
我也相信爱情可以排除万难...
只是或许这些万难会停不下

Thursday, May 21, 2009

时间并没冲谈一切,反而会反复想起一切....

时间一分一秒的过去...

我对你的思念没因此减少...

时时刻刻想起那时的约定...

泪水不知不觉的掉下来...

`我们不是要永远在一起吗?是你告诉我的, 不是吗?`..

回想起当时天真的我..

现在不禁傻笑起来..

所有事情都已经结束了..

完了..

我不断地提醒自己..

希望总有那么一天..

能够振作起来...

做回从前的我...

但是..

无情的时间却再也回不到从前..

而我,只能站在一个遥远的地方..

默默地守护在你的身旁..

给予真诚的祝福

对不起,我爱你…

Saturday, May 16, 2009

the valentine present for this two year

in the end stil didnt hand to u...
i stil kep it...




this few day shot d...oways draw non sense..all couple want all pairs want...issh!!!
sumore draw on hand...but at least i hapi loh...
dun knw wat i think about...i didnt angry he with her anymore...
just angry he didnt company me sumtimes...


nice anot...but he cant see the real hand...



very lame to draw this...issh...

Thursday, May 14, 2009

没有你的日子。。。

没有你的日子。我该怎么过。。。

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

爱你也是我的错吗?

我把我心都交给了你
而你在梦中却喊着他
就在你梦醒的时分
眼里还在含着泪花

是什么让你爱上了他
难道他比我对你好吗
如果真的会是这样
我也会把你放心里呀

我爱你你却爱着他
我的为你的心都碎了
是不是只有忘记我自己
我的泪才不会如雨下

这场游戏我真的累了
你可曾想过我的感受
这样对我公平吗

如果他能给你幸福啊
我情愿忍心伤了我自己
默默的祝福你和他




真的很想他会看到。。。
不能做些什么。。。真的只有唯一的方法???
默默祝福?
真的能吗?
为什么人家做到,但我永远做不到。。。
我的不甘心,谁又会明白???
到底我还能做什么?
就不能对我讲善意的谎言?
善意的谎言那么难讲?
错的不是你而是我没有尽我本分。。。



好难忘记那时的你对我的好。。。
有什么方法能忘掉?
又有谁能帮到我呢?



进样你能明白我的付出吗?
你能明白我对你的好?
你能明白我对你所做的一切的吗?
到底你能感受得到吗?
好辛苦噢。。。。。
到底还要撑多久???
真的不能撑了。。。
我撑不起来。。。

educated people behavior....bull shit...

educated people behavior oways the good wan? i dont think so...
yesterday i see a patient die already...he is 43 years old singh.his relative all is educated people...they are doc oso...but wat they done to the doc...pity the doc...and unfair to the doc...

the doc already try his best to save the patient but at last he oso left...one of the relative try to hit the doc...the doc already try his best to save the patient...he try about 2 hours...but at last he left...not hte doc fault oso ar...he oso a doc y cant he stand at the doc position to think about it leh....too sad is not a bull shit reason...

too sad thn can hit people...when i too sad then izit i can kill sumone else? nowdays educated people is same like no educated people... first time see this kind of EDUCATED prople...more rude then a dog...dog oso know good or not good...

Friday, May 1, 2009

vny going to mad...






recently is too boring...doing nothing...isssh...dun knw wat happened...haiz...he like then bother me...dislike then dont reply my sms...i knw he gt gf alredy...but he said pei me but no oso...

Thursday, April 23, 2009

属于我的到最后都没有了

我坚持的 都值得坚持吗
我所相信的 就是真的吗
如果我敢追求 我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了 不要呢

或许吧 或许我永远都不要遇见他
或许吧 或许我太天真了吧
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于风的 那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的 那就汹涌的
属于我们的爱 该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢 不要呢?

是他吧 命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧 他原来就在这里啊

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

歌词所说的我都完全没有了。。。

after heard he gt gf alrdy fel very hurt...

haiz...y suddenly he tell me that...haiz...izit stil dil if him?
i dun knw oso...i think yes bah...how oso he is the most i love loh...
i oways tell him i dun wan share him with anyone...
but at last i stil sharing him with other girl...
haiz...
wat i can do?
i ask him to choose he want me or her...
she tell me that dont force him, and he said i knw he wont choose oso...
dun wat i can do?
i realy dun knw wat i can do...
bcuz of him how many times i hav to cry or how many time i hav to unhapi?
i hope i dun think about it but that is impossible...
wat i can do? haiz...
dil can be deep in love oso can be dangerous ill....

both of this two i oso got...




that is wat im oways tell myself but the end i oso cant do it...my hope is fully RIP
*RIP= rest in peace




alone stay in the darkness the only light oso off soon...i hav no more hope...

vny is FULLY RIP...DEATH!!! 1990-2009

Friday, April 17, 2009

confuse

this three week didnt online...
wat im doing there?
i dun knw...
wat im think?
that day gt sumone ask me y i wan take this course?
izit want to help ppl or just bcuz of the salary...
she say ca oso can get alot salary...
but i think i two oso gt loh...
CONFUSE...
i dun knw oso...
she say it is very stress want...ask me y willing to take it..
now at new department i fel quite ok...
i didnt fel stress like old department...
she teach me many thing..
she will let do try to do new thing...
if i do it wrongly she will teach me...
last time at old department dun hav this kind of good TEACHER...
she will explain it very clear...
she will tell me why, what, how...
all the question she will explain to me...
even she dun knw oso she will find it out n teach me...
realy thx her alot....

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

为什麽人要这麽的脆弱

对他的死有点伤心。。。我相信他已经尽了最大的努力。。但到最后,他,还是含笑而终。。。在他走时没有认陪他。。。他一个人孤独的上路。。。不懂为什么对他的死自己有很多感触。。。他的死也让我学会了人生的无常。。。因为他的死让他的父母伤心。。。因为他。。。他的父母将要付出他们的所有。。。到底我有什么能帮到他们。。。在我接倒他的死讯时,我被他姐吓了一大跳。。。我还记得我老师告我,他脑的组织以被细菌全破坏了,他不只是脑膜炎,他的脑已有痨病。。。有点担心他女朋友。。。毕竟他们一起了五年,当他昏迷时,他女朋友来看他都是眼含泪光。。。很想帮助他们。。。但我能做些什呢?看到他女朋友寄给我的信息,真的有点心酸。。。在他不清醒时,他问过我很慌谬的话,当时我还记得很清楚他的样子是怎样的。。。当我再问他为什么时。。。。他却变得答非所问。。。之后我问过他女朋友,他有没有讲过一些很奇怪的话。。。她告诉我他看见一个婆婆和一个叫小玲的女孩,叫他上楼上睡觉。。。楼上的床很舒服。。。听起来毛骨耸然吧。。。我想大概是他们把他带走的吧。。。有一次他更无理取闹的骂人。。。他说在他进院时有电视机的,为什么把它搬走。。。这大概是他的幻觉吧。。。为什么他会有如此的报应呢? 他的走带给很多人悲伤,他的走会有多少人不舍? 在他住院期间所交的朋友都会为他的死而感到不舍吧。。。还有他所有得医药费都是他父亲,到出问亲戚朋友借来得。。。六时多千的医药费与现在去世后要用的钱他们应该怎样付。。。真的为他们担心起来。。。但我还是帮不到他们。。。这可能是他因果的报应吧。。。我还是不能够明白。。。

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

稻香

稻香 - 周杰伦
词:周杰伦 曲:周杰伦

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什麽人要这麽的脆弱 堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

不要这麽容易就想放弃 就像我说的
追不到的梦想 换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色 先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧 功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机 现在终於飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐 赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了 谁在偷笑呢
我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
哦 哦 午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦 哦 阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好
所谓的那快乐 赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了 谁在偷笑呢
我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
哦 哦 午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦 哦 阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

Saturday, February 28, 2009

永远都是软趴趴的vny...

actauly my agry face is how de? i didnt see it b4. live here for 19 years d...once oso didnt see b4...
how i angry oso i just will quiet n wont talk to that person i angry oli...
bcuz of that i easy gt bully?
y my sis can go her bf house? but i cant? y she can go out but i cant? what is the reason leh?
bcuz i wont tell out wat i want... they just said i dun knw how to control my owan money but did they think about my sis?
all the reason just bcuz my sis is garang thn me? she dare to fight back with them?
i realy dun knw about this...
i realy fel angry. i dun talk to them,but except this wat i can do sumore?
i rely hope to see my angry face? they going to touch my limit...i will boom out soon...when i tell this to my best freinds...she told me that she listen 1st...how angry oso wont garang like my sis...is that i want angry oso so hard? wat kind of sucking vny is that? angry os hard like that...oli one word can describe my ownselves...USELESS!!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

爱到底是怎样一回事?

爱是喜欢吗?
你爱他到底是对他有好感还是你喜欢他?
爱=男/女=锁头与钥匙...
男=钥匙。
女=锁头。
爱让人欢喜让人忧
当你得到他固然开心,当你知道你将会失去他时,你会后悔你曾经拥有他吗?
爱就像一把不能配对的钥匙。
当你知道你已找到你要得钥匙,你会选择永不放弃。。。
但如果是那么如意,这世上会有那么多人为情自杀吗?
你确定他就是你要的那一把钥匙。但他却选择去找他要得锁头。。。
那时的你还会对他不离不弃吗?
如果你不想当一把等待钥匙的锁头,就别做无谓的东西。。。去认识朋友。。。
爱是一个让人永远不能翻身的陷阱。。。
就算你能从中抽出自己,你也会是遍体鳞伤。。。


all is OVER

Saturday, February 21, 2009

very kesal i didnt go...*&!*%&$#@ all this bcuz the BELOVED indian


she is my lovely grandma
happy belated birthday to my beloved grandma...





all my grandma's grandchildren...except me...im nt in the pic...

see the pic loh...dun knw wan said wat o...






nice birthday cake...




my family pic...but...haiz...


cousin yang tercantik...haha but at sg


all grandson...


all grandaughter...

Friday, February 20, 2009

[+_+] 悲伤 + 伤痛 = 悲伤痛 [+_+]-----> from の俊良のChuN LianGの

(^@^) copy from chun liang's blog...i agree with him...when start the love journey all the sweet word is nice to hear...but once break it consider die...---nice to see nice to hold,once broken consider sold----> nice to speak nice to listen,once broke consider death
在我还没谈过恋爱的日子,
我以为爱情,
都是天长地久的,
在这段恋情,我把永远的这个字都呆在我心中,
谁知道,这段恋情,比想象中更快,更痛苦,
一开始的承诺,一开始的一切,
原来都是假象,都是伪装出来的,
说好的,答应的,慢慢的一一显露出她的伪装,
戴着假面具的人,真的好恐怖,好怕人,
是我笨,是我的愚蠢,害得我陷得很深,
害得我几乎完全忽略了家人,
害得我几乎完全忽略了朋友,
害得我几乎把前途都摧毁了,
害得我几乎失去了方向,
你变心,比闪电般还要快,
我终于明白,你给的承诺都是假的,
我终于明白,我做到的承诺都是空的,
我终于明白,我们一开始就不该在一起的,
我终于明白,我当初应该对你保留一点点距离,
我终于明白,什么是叫做不值,
我终于明白,一切了...
牺牲了我的真心,牺牲了时间,牺牲了我的感情与精神,
到最后得来的是一场空...
哈!真的是可笑...哈哈哈...
现在的我 ,虽然心中还有许多的疑问,心中还是有点不舒服,
有时还会隐隐作痛
我会学着对你死心...把我死去的爱情...埋在深处理....





Thursday, February 19, 2009

izit i need to gv up wat i hav?

i gv up my st john thing...
i need to gv up my dream oso?
actualy wat i wat?
to bcum a nurse?
to hav a bf thn khawin no need to worry?(idiot)
i like cooking, i go learn sumthing about that?
nursing care i didnt fel i dislike it just i cant hav a good relation with my coworker...i fel very stress b4 i work, i fel very tesion b i work...
sumore i very fel scare..
wat i cant do?
i cant avoid it...
i hav to face it sumore...i hav no choice...
i can choose i will choose to do sumthing wat i like...but sumone oways tell me wat v like it is just like v can hav it or do it sumtimes..when i can hav it and do it?
izit my parents too strict or is my own problem...
all this of problem will make me think wrong way...haiz

stress...tension...haiz

what i can do sumore...
actualy i scared get scold or i scare lost the work?
wat i wan sumore now?
i cant understand myself oso..
can i can do now?
continue stand it or just quit?
he dislike i work here...
but i dun knw wat my parents think?
they put too much hope of me?
izit like that i fel the stress?
tension!!!

Monday, February 16, 2009

valentine

valentie oli present from sumone...
bf oso no present but he stil gving me present...
haha...happy but nt bf gv me..
cant upload photo...get it in my friendster lah..
blogspot 'siao' d...cant upload photo...

Saturday, January 10, 2009

n/c i beg u all

busy life with busy vny...
dun knw actualy wat im busy oso..
study? i dun think so...
others???
hapo my nc team dun make me worry alot...
i hope i can train them to me everything ok...
hope i can do it...
even they r my new member...
haiz...
my home nursing cert...
my adult 3rd year cert...
whereit is?
m'i worry about them? yes...
>>>>>>>>
realy sad to hear wat u all tell me...
im realy disapointed...
y i so useless?
can u all train more?
i dunwan lose...
this is my oli chance in st john...
i hope u all can b good abit...
hope u all de st john life wont b suffer like our..
hope u all can win
dun throw st john face...dun malukan my face can mah?
if u all lose i swear i wont go back st john anymore
i will quit...

this is wat i want...
wat v r doing that year...i wan the same...
i dun wan my nc useless...
pls cheer 4 ur own teamm...