ason...i fel our relationship bcum far n far away...

ason...this few day v less chat d...after i work thn v less sms n msn...at night just talk 4 awhile...if u go out with friends d v didnt talk oso...our distance too far away d...i dun knw shud break with u anot...i dun wan to hurt u at all...but wat i shud do now? i fel v shud nt continue like that...in real v just a couple that didnt see b4 n just chat in net n on phone...just like net friends...but i dun knw y that day will promise u to be ur gf...confused..i didnt regret to be ur gf..but the fact is v too far away...1 is from klang but i stay in ipoh...too less to meet...shud v break? i remember one times u tell me that u fel our relation like fake...that time i realy hurt...but now i oli knw it is realy...like fake...just said in sms n msn...but in real life u didnt see me b4...like that just will make each other more suffer...u need to work n need to take care ur friends n family...but u hav no time to come ipoh...i realy confused with this...ason, i think v hav to think carefuly about our relationship...v shud break or just continue like that u decide lah...

7th may 2008...

early in the mornign i wake up n go to having breakfast with my mom...suddenly my mom tell my aunt my hapii zai was get cancer...thn i ask my mom wat cancer he get...that is blood cancer...as i know,4 human blood cancer will recover if hav suitable bone narrow...but 4 pet i dun knw... after that i ask my mom where hapii zai hospital...i wan go visit him...after i decide to visit him thn i go to work i decide this sunday mean 11th may to visit him...but when 11.47am...my sis sms me n told me hapii zai was pass away...i get a shock...thn i reply her impossible...thn she said:"uncle chang told me just now" uncle chang actualy is hapii zai de real owner oso my dad friend...he gv us hapii zai but he oways come to ipoh n see him...this is frist time i gt my pet but he was leave me...damn pain in my heart...whole day i sitting at my counter...my eyes was red...i sitting there quiet...i cant do anything even talk...i scare to touch my phone oso...cuz inside my phone gt his pic n playing car de video...he was cute...i miss him...but i cant see his pic i scare i will cry out at my working place...ntg i can do...just tahan til home...when i back to my room...i look at my phone thn i cry out d...realy hurt...at night b4 slp i act i dun knw about hapii zai was death..i ask my 2nd sis when hapii zai back? she asking me back...u duno meh...he was death...thn i ask her y, n she told me all...thn she told me uncle chang tell 1st sis that a gud dog wont die front of owner..after i listen this i stop sad cuz i knw my hapii zai so clever n care abt us...i must not sad to make him cant rest in peace...word 4 hapii zai...even u death but in my heart u r alive 4ever...no one can take ur place...

what happened to him this few day???

omg...this few day fel he怪怪。。。wat happened to him? so scare me will rugi with my bf...in msn oways gv me kiss kiss...he knw i oli treat him like god brother...i oli my god brother lah...i dun knw wat shud do...shud i ask him??? i scare will make him 尴尬...wat shud i do...he knw i hav bf d...confused...last time when ppl dun knw us thn will said v r couple...but actualy v oli sister n brother...i just treat him as my bro...friends oways ask us 2gether...but he knw n i knw loh...even i slp one bad with him...but that night many ppl wont hav anything happened oso...haiz...wat shud do??? this few day owys chat n he oways said miss me n gv kiss...haiz...i oli like my bf...andrew...i'm sorry if u love me i realy wont 2gether with u cuz i oli wan him...v too friend d...too 了解 each other