moody dayz...

ex bf chasing again? shud i accept him??? i dun knw oso...didnt ans him...very moody...dun knw wat to do oways...boring til moody...lolx...ntg can do over here..just eat,slp,online,chit chat...no more others...this year de life is meaningless...from the start til now...doing ntg oways...even get my lesen...but they nt allowed i drive...gt car oso no use...cant drive out...so boring lah...wat i can do...everyday so chat with him...but dun knw y i dun hav last time that fel...i chat with him when i was doing ntg...but that time he sure is busying...haiz...nt 'yam' timing...last time i chat with ubi(my officer in st john ambulance) he told me that my member very useless...once i listen i getting shock...flag day they want to sold 30000 sticker...lolx...thay tot thy are sticker promoter...the truth is cant sell finish...when flag day need to use the money that ppl derma to buy all the sticker...lolx...this year derma de money oli hav rm 3000 lolx...my spec already drop down...n it already spoil....1st times like that...so many year in st john 1st times like that...izit i shud scold them? ubi ask them y didnt told me this...they said scare getting scold wor...lolx...do until like that stil scare ppl scold...sumore v found out that 2 ppl was 'eating' money in our school...now v hav to found out few way to make him gv us the account book to see...i hope to fire this kind of useless ppl out of my division...hope will found out wat going on of the account...

at last v break loh...break on 17 july b4 my birthday...

break with ason...stil gt abt nt willing but ntg i can do...quite happy in my birthday...dun knw wat to say...long time didnt update my blog...cuz i think it dun hav anyone to view...it just like let me said out my unhapiness n hapiness...

after my exam but i bcum pengawai ukur tanah...issh!!!

damn boring here...oways doing ntg...wake up.online.gaming.eating.offline.slp.wake up.online again...everthing oso do the same thing...but this few day i meet alot of new friends in freindster...they quite nice...many topic v can chat...many thing v can joke...but v didnt joke too over...haha...abit happy when chat with them...last time when i online oso doing ntg...so long times didnt online until this few day i oways online...hahaha....dun knw hav wat to tell u all oso...haha...this few day quite 'siao'...but i knw i miss them alot...i long times didnt find them to come out d...last nite my best friends asking me izit lost in the world...didnt find them d...actualy i dun knw find them 4 wat...wan going out oso waste money just siting at kopitiam chit-chat 4 long time...issshh...boring...

after my exam d...

this month i fel i no more mood d...very moody...i dun knw y oso...y will bcum like that? after exam i shud happy wert? but y i stil wil fel moddy? wat happened to me? i fel i very less chat with ason...our relationship bcum far n far away...his friendster bcum no more comment...i asking myself...izit realy liek him or that time i fel lonely oli promise will 2gether with him? is that real love? i didnt get the ans...cuz i realy dun knw... v long time didnt talk n contact...until yesterday i reload...i call him...but i dun hav last time taht mood to talk n joke with him...y will like that? or wat i fel is real? wat i shud do now? izit break with him???
i dun wan to hurt him...wat i can do? i fel he realy like me... i not willing to hurt him but wat i can do? except break wat i stil can do???
b4 exam i fel very stress until 2day...even i not more stress but i worry my result...if i realy cant get credit wat i can do on my future? very confused...i dislike study...but i dislike working too...wanna die...realy realy stress...

ason...i fel our relationship bcum far n far away...

ason...this few day v less chat d...after i work thn v less sms n msn...at night just talk 4 awhile...if u go out with friends d v didnt talk oso...our distance too far away d...i dun knw shud break with u anot...i dun wan to hurt u at all...but wat i shud do now? i fel v shud nt continue like that...in real v just a couple that didnt see b4 n just chat in net n on phone...just like net friends...but i dun knw y that day will promise u to be ur gf...confused..i didnt regret to be ur gf..but the fact is v too far away...1 is from klang but i stay in ipoh...too less to meet...shud v break? i remember one times u tell me that u fel our relation like fake...that time i realy hurt...but now i oli knw it is realy...like fake...just said in sms n msn...but in real life u didnt see me b4...like that just will make each other more suffer...u need to work n need to take care ur friends n family...but u hav no time to come ipoh...i realy confused with this...ason, i think v hav to think carefuly about our relationship...v shud break or just continue like that u decide lah...

7th may 2008...

early in the mornign i wake up n go to having breakfast with my mom...suddenly my mom tell my aunt my hapii zai was get cancer...thn i ask my mom wat cancer he get...that is blood cancer...as i know,4 human blood cancer will recover if hav suitable bone narrow...but 4 pet i dun knw... after that i ask my mom where hapii zai hospital...i wan go visit him...after i decide to visit him thn i go to work i decide this sunday mean 11th may to visit him...but when 11.47am...my sis sms me n told me hapii zai was pass away...i get a shock...thn i reply her impossible...thn she said:"uncle chang told me just now" uncle chang actualy is hapii zai de real owner oso my dad friend...he gv us hapii zai but he oways come to ipoh n see him...this is frist time i gt my pet but he was leave me...damn pain in my heart...whole day i sitting at my counter...my eyes was red...i sitting there quiet...i cant do anything even talk...i scare to touch my phone oso...cuz inside my phone gt his pic n playing car de video...he was cute...i miss him...but i cant see his pic i scare i will cry out at my working place...ntg i can do...just tahan til home...when i back to my room...i look at my phone thn i cry out d...realy hurt...at night b4 slp i act i dun knw about hapii zai was death..i ask my 2nd sis when hapii zai back? she asking me back...u duno meh...he was death...thn i ask her y, n she told me all...thn she told me uncle chang tell 1st sis that a gud dog wont die front of owner..after i listen this i stop sad cuz i knw my hapii zai so clever n care abt us...i must not sad to make him cant rest in peace...word 4 hapii zai...even u death but in my heart u r alive 4ever...no one can take ur place...

what happened to him this few day???

omg...this few day fel he怪怪。。。wat happened to him? so scare me will rugi with my bf...in msn oways gv me kiss kiss...he knw i oli treat him like god brother...i oli my god brother lah...i dun knw wat shud do...shud i ask him??? i scare will make him 尴尬...wat shud i do...he knw i hav bf d...confused...last time when ppl dun knw us thn will said v r couple...but actualy v oli sister n brother...i just treat him as my bro...friends oways ask us 2gether...but he knw n i knw loh...even i slp one bad with him...but that night many ppl wont hav anything happened oso...haiz...wat shud do??? this few day owys chat n he oways said miss me n gv kiss...haiz...i oli like my bf...andrew...i'm sorry if u love me i realy wont 2gether with u cuz i oli wan him...v too friend d...too 了解 each other