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爱情徘徊在情缘之间

2010-06-18T00:12:00.002+08:00

通过网络的相识相知，心灵相系，这是缘？有缘心陷情深，却无缘此生相守，只因缘太浅？冥冥之中，无际网络，你我有幸相遇，继而产生感情，互许下辈子的诺言，是为缘深，却要弃今生而不顾，是情浅？情深缘浅？情浅缘深？也许万事皆有定数。缘来不由我，情去又岂能由得了我？所有的答案都在岁月中，等到明白，已不堪回首！
无论是网恋，还是现实生活中的恋爱，都一样会有猜疑，矛盾，都一样可能转变，放弃。网恋比现实中的爱恋，需要用更多的时间来维系，更直接的表达方式来弥补距离带来的疑虑，对相互间的默契，付出，步伐都要求尽量一致，如果一方怠慢，松懈，另一方便会感觉双份的疲惫，继而选择逃避，分开，这样一段感情，便也差不多缘尽了～
我们之间没有相守的承诺，所以没有那份执着，走起来更轻松，但爱得却很更苦，痛得更彻底。每每我都抱怨他的坚持，后悔被拉下了水，每每又会被他的三言两语，说的有爱便不枉此生，经此一爱又有何求。
有些人说女人是水做的，这一刻我才真正懂得...水没有自己的形状，却总是在被动的转变自己的流向。
好不容易，我在这份感情中又找回了去我自己，只是爱情的必然？还是我不够坚强？渐渐的上网不再仅仅是为了等他；渐渐的看到他的灰色的头像时不再失望；渐渐的看他跳动的头像不再莫名的惊喜；渐渐的一个星期不打电话，也感觉不到时间有那么长；渐渐的对他的感情开始留于想象，没有了之前的痛彻心扉；渐渐的淡漠；渐渐的流逝，也有着深切的无奈，沉重的遗憾......渐渐的这些成了岁月的痕迹，回望时记忆的符号，感触到的是失落的心！

i should choose the one i love or the one who love me??

2010-06-06T14:02:00.003+08:00

盼不到我爱的人,我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人,片刻柔情它骗不了人

我不是无情的人,却将你伤的最深
我不忍我不能
别再认真,忘了我的人

离不开我爱的人,我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人,因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心,碰不到最好的人

我不问我不能
拥在怀中,直到他变冷

爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

我等你，唯一能让我安慰，唯一的希望～

2010-06-03T21:20:00.002+08:00

不做考虑也没半点犹豫, 我就说了这一句我等你, 所以你可以离去,不相信你还会回心转意,是我任性才决定要等你,我眼中的泪没掉过一滴,只是随你背影,慢慢倒流进心里,我等你半年为期,逾期狠狠把你忘记,不止是伤心的还包括一切甜蜜要等你,要证明自己我可以纵容你在心底
也可以当你只是路过的人而已
给自己一个善意的谎言，让自己觉得还有希望，让自己觉得你会回到我身边～
唯一让我有做事有冲劲的善意谎言～

如果我选择了你，请你好好珍惜我

2010-06-02T23:02:00.002+08:00

如果我选择了你，请你好好珍惜我，我会认真对待我们这份感情，认真对待你，因为有了你，我相信自己不会再四处张望，眼睛里只有你.....

请你常和我联系，无论有多忙，一个电话，一条短信，或只是 MSN上的一个表情就可以，只要让我知道你心里有我。不要说我们都是大人了，自己能照顾自己的，这个话我不能接受，没有你的消息，我不光会想你，还会担心！担心你是不是有了什么意外，有没有按时吃饭，过得好不好，更糟的是我会担心你心里是不是有了别人，所以请你一定不要忽略我！

请你抓紧我的手，让我感觉到你的存在，如果我偶尔烦到了你，在你不高兴的时候，在你疲倦的时候说了让你不高兴的话，请你想想我对你的爱，想想我的优点。如果你遇到了外界的诱惑请你想想我，因为我一定在想着你，请你想想你所做的事会不会伤害到我！

如果有一天，你遇到了让你更心动的人，你选择离开，请你早点告诉我，不要让我成为最后一个知道的人，不要让我成为傻瓜，因为那样我一定会恨你。我不会阻拦你，每个人都有追求幸福的权利，只希望你不要欺骗我。我不敢说我会原谅你，但我一定会放手，因为我希望你记住的是我们一起所有的美好，哪怕只是偶尔才会想起，我相信你脸上一定会有微笑。

如果我选择了你，请好好珍惜我。如果你伤害了我，我选择离开，那时遗憾的人一定不只我一人

你和别人做一次爱的时间我要流多少血？

2010-06-02T22:57:00.002+08:00

我推开他的房门
看到他正和一个女孩在床上
我稍稍一楞马上说：“我在客厅等你.”于是我为他们这对狗男女关好了门
坐在客厅的一角打开电视
女孩的包放在那我随手打开
翻出一把修眉的刀片很精致很锋利
在我家从来见不到锋利的东西
因为我对它们有情结
而今天它就在我手上
我怎么会不去和它亲近
我那么爱它爱它给我的感觉
手腕上总有突突跳的一处
象里面藏了个古怪的小动物
它想跳出来于是
我用我热爱的锋利的刀片帮助了它
也帮助了自己原来血流的速度可以这么快
我从容的点了支烟
继续看电视．一个男人对一个女人说＂我爱你
可是我不能和你在一起
我不能每天活在负罪感中．
＂**妈，扯什么蛋
男人真他妈自私真他妈虚伪真他妈懦弱
来世我要是男人我爱谁就一定和谁在一起
无论怎样都不分开除非除非有一天不爱了

我的头越来越晕
电视里的狗男女唠唠叨叨说个没完
屋里的狗男女哼哼哈哈没结束
他在这方面的能力我是非常佩服的
控制力相当的出色
正当我胡思乱想的时候
那女的出来了看到地板上的血尖叫了一声
他连内裤都来不及穿跑出来摇晃我
他说＂你这个傻女人，你至于这样吗？＂
我咧开嘴想笑

背叛是肮脏无耻的可背叛又是正常的
因为人的天性里就有背叛的成分
很早以前就有一个关于人类的传说
传说人类最早是双性人
两个脑袋四个胳膊四条腿
因为背叛了上帝
所以上帝一怒之下把所有的人类都劈成了两半
从此才有了男人和女人
这以后每个人都在寻找自己的另一半
找到之后又要背叛他伤害他
其实伤害的是自己
因为很早很早以前你们是一个人是一体的
人类就是这样不停的背叛自己的爱人
不停的背叛自己这是一个诅咒一切都源于人类对上帝的背叛

他坐在我的病床前在不停的说着
或许是在解释什么我听不清楚
我的思绪不在他身上
我一直在使劲想有关人性这个问题

我出院的时候手腕上还缠着纱布
雪白雪白的被阳光照上去变的刺眼
我直接回了自己的住处收拾东西
我想我该离开了
我要去一个我原本应该在的地方
他来找我说：＂宝贝你别走
你知道我爱你
我和那个女的只是玩玩的．＂
我看着他的眼睛里面有一丝焦急
我想那可能是真的
我用轻松的口气学周星星＜回魂夜＞里的台词：
＂你那么喜欢玩你自己玩吧压力太大我不玩啦＂

我给他的卡片上写着：
当你电话响起时你会把手伸进口袋
拿到电话的那一刻你会看到我最后给你留下的话
首先我告诉你
我自杀不是想让你内疚让你后悔让你反省
我只是想知道你和别的女人做一次爱的时间
我能流多少血现在我知道了是1000cc
我爱你所以我不会再和你待在一块
因为我无法忍受你对我也是对你自己的背叛
我觉得肮脏恶心占有欲是人的共性
我也是一样的你不会再找到我
我会在中途下车然后去一个我应该去的地方
你不会知道那是哪
手机上有三个未接电话是吗？
那是我最后一次对你说我爱你。

想一次。痛一次～

2010-05-30T23:48:00.001+08:00

想你一次，心痛一次~
心痛一次，想你一次。

什么时候才能不再想你，什么时候才能把你忘记。
我时常冥思苦想，
把你忘记了，我是不是就不会再难过？
把你忘记了，我是不是就会很开心？
把你忘记了，是不是生活就会好一些？
把你忘记了，是不是就可以过上新的生活？

我该怎么把你忘记？
本想忘记你的，
但你的身影总是在我心里徘徊而至，
真不知是你不肯离去，
还是我不肯忘记。

心痛是你留给我的唯一，
想你却是我拥有你的全部。
想你的感觉很美，
如果你也在想念我的话~
想你的感觉很苦，
因为知道那是没有归期的，
想你的感觉很无奈，
明知道没有结果可言，
但还是想，
还是没有时间概念的想，
没有地点区分的想，
只要脑子里有一刻空闲就是那么强烈的想你。　

夜不能寐，茶不思，饭不想。
坐立不安，好像都不足以代表我现在的心情。
傻笑一下安慰自己。

思念你的感觉真的很美，
它让我充实，让我满足~
思念你的感觉真的很苦，
它让我难过，让我孤独，让我失落，让我想放弃。

思念你的感觉真的很无奈，
它让我迷失自己，
它让我没有方向，
它让我不知道归期，
它让我对明天止步。

最重要的是，
思念你的感觉让我心痛。
心痛的感觉就像少了什么，
酸酸的，仿佛缺了灵魂。
一种说不出来，
却又明明白白的感受。

心痛感觉就是突然间有了一种冲动，
想要展开双翅，
飞向那蔚蓝色的天空，
却伤心地发现，
自己却已经不能……

心痛的感觉，
就是没有回音，
是没有人应答。
是在百般煎熬之中，
孤掌难鸣。
是在苦苦的守候中，
孤枕难眠。

心痛的时候，
用手紧紧抓住胸口，
想要把心揪住~
心痛的时候，
将胸抵在膝头，
任泪水肆意横流~
心痛的时候，
是那样孤独而又无助，
好想找一间远离尘世的森林小屋，
在没人听见的地方放声大哭……

有过心痛的人，
一定曾经深深的受过心痛的感觉
是在某一个突然醒来的深夜不请自来已经有多久了，
不再有爱的冲动，
已经有多久了，
不再有心灵的沟通。
心痛的感觉何尝不是一种幸福，
总比无心一样，
没感觉的好。。
哪怕给我一丝阳光，
一丝温暖。
一切都是那么值得。

很想大声的告诉你！！！我想你！！！

2010-05-21T23:12:00.002+08:00

想到那首歌～想起你跟我说的每一句话～想到你给我的承诺～为什么一直回想那些日子？回忆永远都是甜的，难忘的～想起你晚上谈天对我唱的歌～想起你把那首歌录起来～再寄给我，你说在我不开心时辛苦时我都可以听～想在每一次听～眼泪都会不由自主地流了下来～我还是依赖着他～每一天都有听～虽然不比原唱的好听～但我觉得很甜很甜～想起你对我的说你以前的故事～你的每一句话我还是记得很清楚～你的样子～你的声音～我很想大声地告诉你我想你～但是我不能～虽然你没有女朋友～但我知道你的心由始至终都在想着他～包括你跟我一起的日子～我不能告诉你我想你，我不能告诉你我爱你，但我希望我们永远都是好朋友～
我不知道我昨晚(20/5)做的决定是否真确～可能昨天的决定时很冲动～但是真心的～可能昨天的决定让我们不再是朋友～我不知道昨天你有没有收到～但我真的希望你知道～真的希望你明白～对不起～我爱你～情非得已～～～

一直控制自己不可以再想你～

2010-05-12T20:45:00.004+08:00

对你的思念是一天又一天
并没有因为时间的长久而减少
孤单的我还是没有改变
一样的不开心一样的乱想
美丽的梦何时才能出现
还会有那个时候吗？
亲爱的你，好想再见你一面
这还有可能吗？
秋天的风一阵阵地吹过
唤起我对你的思念
想起了我们开心的日子
你的心到底在想些什么？
为什么忍心留下这个结局让我承受
可能最爱你的人是我
但你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候，没有一句话就走
对你付出了这么多你却没有感动过
对你的思念是一天又一天的增加

我已经尽力不去想那个他了～

2010-05-12T19:26:00.001+08:00

别管以后将如何结束
至少我们曾经相聚过
不必费心地彼此约束
更不需要言语的承诺
只要我们曾经拥有过
对你我来讲已经足够
人的一生有许多回忆
只愿你的追忆有个我
别管以后将如何结束
至少我们曾经相聚过
不必费心地彼此约束
更不需要言语的承诺
只要我们曾经拥有过
对你我来讲已经足够
人的一生有许多回忆
只愿你的追忆有个我
别管以后将如何结束
至少我们曾经相聚过
不必费心地彼此约束
更不需要言语的承诺
只要我们曾经拥有过
对你我来讲已经足够
人的一生有许多回忆
只愿你的追忆有个我

nice song

2010-05-08T22:57:00.000+08:00

他的情况留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

the only feeling on u :(

2010-05-05T21:55:00.001+08:00

想要了解对方的这份感情，希望对方谅解的那份心意若只是放在心里默默不语，任谁也无法传出去。
因此千万别放弃。快点大声说出来。
恋情的终点不是世界的终点。
等日后哪天想起来，爱上你也是一段美好的回忆。
为了令今天的自己，变得比昨天的自己更坚强。
感情这回事。。。
不告诉别人，不让任何人知道的话会变成没有存在过吗？
只是隐藏于心底里的感情，想必也无法成功蒙混过去而已。
必须从这里开始前进。
不过连自己站立的地方也未能看到。。。
到底应该向哪方面前进才好呢？
幸福的界线是由自己决定。。。
静止不动的时间。。。
让它从新启动的方向法。。。
我必定已经知道了。。
从最初认识他的那天开始也一直如此。
哪些是谎言，那些是事实，根本没有分别。
悲痛的回忆，终身不能忘记。
不管是叫人眼前一黑般的绝望，还是叫人炫目的幸福也好，能带给我这些的人，只有你。
一面得到其他人的原谅，一面尝试着不同的事情，一面哭着，一面笑着。。。
暮然回首，对我们来说曾经是如天国的地方。
今后我们会朝哪个方向进发？
接下来的路想必会延续到任何一个地方吧。
栖身之所，回归之处，孕育之所。
开始的地方。。。
我在这里邂逅了你。。。

很烦！

2010-05-03T21:17:00.004+08:00

when fee unhappy then go eat ice cream after eat ice cream will be better~

最近这几天都一直想起很多东西,觉得很烦～
想起某某人～想起很多以前的事～真想回到中学时，没有烦恼～要玩就玩～
想起以前真好笑,好像学校是我开的一样，要几点上学就几点上学，几点放学就几点放学，看到纪律主任打个招呼，拍拍屁股就走进学校，也没被处罚，哈哈！可能他们已经知道我无药可救～哈哈～其实我很乖的^^
突然间又跟一个很好很好的朋友翻脸，不懂他发生什么事,为什么那么多年朋友说绝交就绝交？从四年级到现在的好朋友说觉绝交就绝交～中学时有什么事都一起当，打也一起打，什么都在一起，为什么他能这样就说绝交？现在他真的变了很多很多，他学会喝酒，还是喝很凶，吸烟，为什么他会这样？那么小的事就绝交～难道他一点也不留恋吗？难道他一直以来都没有把我当朋友？就因为我没去毕业晚宴？就因为我时常没在班？就因为我注重圣约翰救伤队？就因为毕业后我没再找他？他到底明白为什么吗？之从我没去毕业晚宴你已经生气我很久～好不容易才和好现在更因为我很少找你们出来而绝交？我能出我也想出我就是不能。。。为什么你就是不能明白？我不只是没有找你，我谁都没找～我真的很久没有跟中学的朋友出来了～为什么你一直说我有跟圣约翰的朋友出去?我希望你能明白～我真的不想解释那么多～会越描越黑的～

nice old song...my mood...

2010-04-29T21:22:00.002+08:00

灯光也暗了
音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了
人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了
电话响起了
你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了
是你变了
灯光熄灭了
音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了
人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了
我的心真的受伤了
acting@@ try to tell myself dun miss him anymore...
try to tell myself we r not suit
try my best to keep him out of my brain...
i'm failed..
i cant did it...

bff get hurt...

2010-04-13T18:59:00.003+08:00

wat a fucking boy(i cant mention his name),super fucker!!!how dare he play my bff like that?!3 weeks only ar...i dun know i should say she dint think before do or the guy is purposely do it...really sad..i had been tell her many times...dont ever believe wat guy say...all it cheat...not really want..they just trying to trap people...why dont she listen to me? if she listen to me may be she wont get hurt by the fucker...i'm really sad...
this thing already happened in few month ago...but as her bff yesterday only i know...i didnt thik that it is serious like that...when she tell me i was get shock...how come she will like that???! i cant really understand about her...since after study we less meet out and chat...
i know her from i was standard 4, until now...how many years we be friend? about 9 and 10 years!!! how come i still not really understand her?
i duno wat i can do to help her...i really confused...i'm in trouble now i oso dun wat i can tell her...
i ask her to promise that she cant do it anymore before the right time...
hope she understand...one more victim in love...haiz...

爱过就足够

2010-04-11T11:04:00.002+08:00

是不是我爱得还不够
是不是你真的想要走
想要抓住你的手
想要等着爱回头
想要再一次拥抱你的温柔
是不是要勇敢地牵手
是不是该好好过以后
想要抓住你的手
想要等着爱回头
想要把思念当作忘记的借口
你怎么独自泪流
你怎么为爱强求
你怎么忍心让我一个人走
谁的泪不会流
谁的心在沉痛
谁让老天安排我们分手
你怎么说走就走
你怎么忘了温柔
你怎么忍心让我苦苦等候
谁的泪不会流
谁的心在沉痛
谁让老天安排我们分手

so many years ady...the feel is stil the same...nothing i can do anymore...
try my best ady...i dun wan wait it anymore and i dun want disturb his life anymore...it forever not belong to me...the right decision for him and myself...
what i done for him is worth but he dono how to appreciate it...nothing i can do anymore...hope he happy always...this is the only thing i can do.the last thing for him...

long time didnt update

2009-12-24T15:27:00.002+08:00

quite long didnt update...quite many thing happened...very verl long story...got happy de got unhapy thing oso...lolx...i dun know wat to write d....so lame...lolx!!!

my mood become more worst n worst...

2009-12-06T17:35:00.000+08:00

actually what i need?
i'm keep asking the same question in all the second...
can anyone tell me?
i hope to get lost from here...!!!

suddenly very sad...

2009-11-15T16:03:00.002+08:00

he say he cant accept i care him more...he say i treat him too good...he no right to hav it...what i can do?
izit i care him oso wrong?
i duno what to say and what to tell...
haiz...so many days didnt slp jor!!!

anger!!!!

2009-11-09T15:59:00.002+08:00

recently de me getting worse...=.=
what i am doing recently??
doing nothing...
lolx...
one nigh i on my msn via phone and got one girl tell me weird thing...
she is the onei love the most's gf....
but that night she ask me...:"your gor didnt tell you meh?"
i think for few minutes...:wat my gor should tell me?
i ask her back...she tell me:"your gor already broke up with me"
i get shock...
i duno why they will broke up...
he didnt tell me oso...then i still so stupid ask her don be sad and try toask her to be happy...
what the f*ck i doing?
i ask her to be happy back?
then she tell me is she wnt to broke with him...
omg...she not very love him meh?
why she want broke with him...
that time still tell me when he 21 years old will married her...omg
suddenly she send me she very hate me!!! that time i very confuse=.=
what i did make her to angry me?
did i make them broke?
now is she want to broke up...what for she want to hate me?
she really a fucker cause angry non-sense!!!
when she pmr i still send her tips for exam...i stil try to help her...
she like not believe and that is a lot to study n she ask me dont play the joke
wat the hell she say!!!
i play the joke?!
i just dont want my gor got a stupid gf!!!
this kind of girl throw to dustbin oso no one want to recycle lah!!!
huiyo!!!
i damn angry her!!! i more hate her then she hate me!!!
if not my gor i wont look stupid and didnt fight back loh!!! sure got one day i will balas dendam want...

vny didnt recovery...is getting worse...

2009-08-12T17:41:00.000+08:00

i dun wan live because of u!!!
i wan live for myself

sorry to everyone...

2009-07-06T21:09:00.002+08:00

sory...
vny will very less update
vny only will update when i fully recovery from him...
wish all friend all the best...
==take care all my friends==

告诉他好象也是我的错

2009-06-16T11:55:00.002+08:00

昨天在我开MSN的时候，我看见他女友的MSN DISPLAY WORD 写着 I WAN PLAY WITH SEX，BUT I WOULD'NT LET THEM IN...
假如当时是你看见这样东西，你会想什么？
老实说，她给我第一个印象就已经是不好的。。。
但他喜欢啊。。。我还能做什么？
我真的不懂了。。。
挣扎了很久，终于告诉了他，这难道也是我的错？
他女朋友解释说，那这是一件衣服的字，她觉得有趣所以就写上去。。。
你们相信有这样的衣服吗？
穿上去，难道你要让人知道你是多么开放的？
昨天我做了很多自己也想像不到的东西，清醒过后才知道。。。
很后悔告诉他。。。我让我们之间建多了一幅墙。。。
这时让我不想放弃也难。。。
喝了好多的啤酒。。。但没有发泄，让不开心的想的更多。。。

wanna to tell u sumthing...can i?

2009-06-11T19:48:00.007+08:00

vny fel wan tell u that three word...
but did u accept it?
did u will back to vny?
u only will tell vny that is impossible...
until today vny stil waiting...
waiting u say yes...
but is that waiting u will back to vny...
the time cant make vny forget...
just make vny miss the past...
vny cant even forget a little thing...
this oso is a IMPOSSIBLE for vny to forget u...
vny hope one day u will back to vny...
start 23th sept 2007 vny already think this...
but now is 2009...
it is totally 2 years...
u still didnt back vny anymore...
vny dun knw vny stil can do wat...
vny heart totally death from the word IMPOSSIBLE from your mouth...
vny very disapointed n vny will give up soon...
vny kept like that better i go a place that very far from u...
vny can miss u without u know about it...
vny can love u without telling you...
vny can do wat vny like without any CANT from u...
may b vny can stay there with alot of happiness...
say bye to to the one vny love...
say bye to the one vny most care...
say bye to the one vny miss in vny's life...

+|+ 吃醋的感觉 +|+

2009-05-29T23:17:00.001+08:00

有拍过拖的人或曾经有过喜欢的人
都有过吃醋感觉吧
注：不是拿来吃那种醋

男人吃的话
就会乱发脾气
对女人做什么都不对。

女人的话
就是瞎猜测
生闷气等等

吃醋是什么感觉呢
心理酸酸的
很想哭觉得很委屈

也是内心的一种别扭的感觉吧。
看到自己喜欢的人和别人在一起很快乐
会感觉很难受
很不甘心
希望自己是那个他/她。

可以说是恋爱中的嫉妒与占有欲
希望对方只在乎自己
一再一再地想证明他/她最爱的唯一的人是自己
这不期然可以说是一种虚荣
或是自尊心作祟。

虚荣心强的或是自尊心过度的人若是看开一点
豁达一点
会比较好哟。

当听到喜欢的人要去见其他的异性朋友,

心里就有一种莫名的感觉,

也感觉不出来是不是酸的,

反正心里总是不塌实
老是内个劲的
你就吃醋感觉了

吃醋说明是在乎他
什么事情都觉得酸酸的`
心里也特别不舒服

看到他你会心跳
看到他和别人…
你会吃醋
你会难受
证明你在意他
也证明你喜欢上他／她了

说也不是很清楚

何不自己试试

当你朋友跟别的异性亲近时

你老觉得
他有什么好的
心里老是想着他
怕被别人抢去

兄台你吃醋了

吃的越厉害
就是越喜欢

还有一种就是占有欲了

吃醋是男女之间感情的波动
是一种爱的表现
不要以为吃醋是女人的专利
男人也很会吃醋的
有人说女人比较小气
所以比较爱吃醋
其实不然
只是女人比较
藏不住心思
比较容易喜怒形于色。

温柔型的女生
吃醋的时候就是心里觉得很酸啊
但是还没有表现的很明显
看见喜欢的人和别的女生说话或者关系很好的时候
都是假装不在乎
其实心里生气着呢

但是喜欢的人只要哄两句就又没什么了

不过男生还挺喜欢看女生吃醋的
觉得挺可爱的 ^^

而男人大多把心事放在心底
其实在他们心底
他们总希望自己是所爱女人的唯一。

在感情领域里
不管是男是女
只要爱着对
方
总会计较一些小事
有些莫非其妙的举动
这就是吃醋的表现
也是爱的表现。

其实这一些都是生活中的小事
虽然有时候对方吃醋时语气会不好
但是换个角度想一想
对方是因为爱你才吃醋的
心中就会有甜蜜感
其实有人吃醋也是一种幸
福的感觉。

所以在对方吃醋的时候给他一个怀抱
给他一个笑容
那些无理取闹的小动作就会变成一种情趣
所有的委屈也会烟消云散。

朋友们你
吃醋了吗….

我不喜欢吃醋感觉

但是这种感觉不能避免
嘿啊！( HATE AH)

agree?

2009-05-26T17:48:00.001+08:00

*Love.

What is that thing called love?
Some people believe it's a gift from god,
Other say it brings nothing but pain.
Maybe it is one way train,
That you couldn't come back again.
Maybe is just like the rain,
You never know how hard it would be and how long it will be.
How could a small word hold so many maybe?
A small word but many question marks?
It's such a complicated feeling that confused me.
Love is so precious,
Love is so treasure,
Love is caring,
Love is daring,
and most of all, love is sharing.
True love doesn't have a happy ending because true love never end.
I meet my love since the day I started the love,
The day that much memorable.
Before everything happening I'm just still alone living in a lonely world.
Without her,
I won't appear in here.
Although how much I do,
It won't enough.
Because Love is never enough.

*Forever.

What is that thing called forever?
Is it with the one you love till the end of the world?
When would the earth end?
You can sure that you will forever with your loves one?
For me,
I just will do my best to her,
If anything happened.
I wouldn't regret!
Because I had done everything I had to do.
Although I'm not perfect,
but I can make love be perfect!
I doesn't mind anything,
Just I can have the day with her,
It's already enough to me.
I love you, my loves.

wat is love? izit real?

2009-05-26T17:47:00.001+08:00

* Love it's just like a bubble gum,
when it stick on your heart,
it so hard to remove,
Just like how you stay in my heart,
here and everywhere.
There is no one in the whole world that makes me feel this way.
By the way,
It is not being in love that makes me happy...
but is being in love with YOU that makes me happy.
I will love you until my heart stops beating.
I just had to let you know... you're the best!
I love you!

已经死了

2009-05-26T11:44:00.001+08:00

已经死了，下半辈子不想再做人了，有一条路叫黄泉路，有一条河叫忘川，河上有一座桥叫奈何桥，走过奈何桥有个士台叫望乡台，望乡台边有个老人卖孟婆茶，忘川边有个石头叫三生石，孟婆茶叫你忘记一切，三生石记载你的前世今生，我们走过奈何桥，在望乡台看最后一眼人间，喝一杯忘川水煮的孟婆茶，于是。。。。。。。

who you care about now?

2009-05-25T19:28:00.001+08:00

世界上最傻的人是不在乎他(她)眼裡有沒有自己卻還是願意去為他(她)付出

世界上最傻的人是不讓他(她)知道自己喜歡著他(她)還愛他(她)愛的要死

世界上最傻的人是去對一段永遠都不能會有結果的人付出自己的真心

世界上最傻的人是明知道他(她)眼中沒有自己還是死心踏地的愛著

世界上最傻的人是他(她)可以沒有自己自己卻還是不能沒有他(她)

世界上最傻的人是愛的苦愛的痛愛的累卻還要堅持去愛他(她)

世界上最傻的人是明明他(她)就在妳的咫尺邊卻還是不告白

世界上最傻的人是心裡不願意還是會誠心祝福他(她)幸福

世界上最傻的人是讓自己的他(她)投入別人的懷抱裡去

世界上最傻的人是忍住相思苦不去表現給他(她)知道

世界上最傻的人是永遠只會看著他(她)和別人快樂

世界上最傻的人是掩飾自己對他(她)的情感不說

世界上最傻的人是不在乎自己會傷的有多麼重

世界上最傻的人是在乎他(她)到底快不快樂

世界上最傻的人是只會關心著他(她)事情

世界上最傻的人是不求他(她)回報自己

世界上最傻的人是只會一廂情願的人

世界上最傻的人是愛他(她)說不出口

人總是要在失去了之後，

才會知道對方是多麼的重要，

但在發現之後，

也沒有辦法可以去挽回了。

..世界上最傻的人..,

如果他（她）他这辈子爱的是她(他）而不是你时，

你会用一辈子的时间等他（她）

at night ur phone is on for who?

2009-05-25T19:24:00.001+08:00

女孩有个很要好的男朋友，两个人不见面的時候，就打打电话或发发短信，大家都喜欢这样的联络方式。
有一天夜里，男孩很想念女孩子，打了过去却关机，因为女孩子已经睡著了。第二天，男孩对女孩子说：“以后晚上不要关机，好吗？我想你的時候找不到你，心会不安。”

从那以后，女孩开始另一种习惯整夜都不关机。
因为害怕他打來自己会因睡著而听不到，女孩夜夜都很警醒，人便日日消瘦。
然而，慢慢地，两個人之间还是有了裂痕。
女孩很想挽回即临分手的局面，便在一个深夜里給男孩打电話，
回答她的是很好听的女声：sorry，你所拨打的电话已关机。　　
于是女孩知道，她的爱情已经关机。

很久以后，女孩有了另一场爱情。
即使两个人在一起的感觉也很好，但女孩怎么也不肯嫁。
女孩的心里还是会想起那个男孩的话和那个关机的夜晚。
女孩还是保持著整夜不关机的习惯，只是不再期待它會响起。
一天夜裡，女孩身染急症，慌亂之中把本想撥給父母的電話，卻打通了這個男孩的電話，這個男孩沒关機。
女孩平安地恢復了健康。
後來女孩問男孩：“為什麼深夜還不关機？”
男孩說：“我怕你夜裡有事情找不到我，會心慌。”
女孩最終嫁給了男孩。
是啊，你的手機，深夜裡為誰開？
你會不會怕她找不到而心慌，愛一個人，有一份等待，就會在深夜裡習慣性的開機。
有一個可以開機等候你的人，那是一種深深的幸福

你知道吗?爱情使人忘记时间...时间也使人忘记爱情...

2009-05-22T14:47:00.000+08:00

原来...
世上最凄楚的距离
是两人本来的距离很远,互不相识...
忽然有一天他们相识了...
相爱的距离变得很近...
后来有一天,不再相爱了...
本来很近的两个人...
变得很远,甚至比以前更远...
你知道吗?
爱情使人忘记时间...
时间也使人忘记爱情...

如果...
情感和岁月也能轻轻撕碎,丢到海中...
那么我愿意从此就在海底沉默...
你的言语,我爱听,却不懂得...
我的沉默,你看见,却不明白...

其实...
我也相信爱情可以排除万难...
只是或许这些万难会停不下

时间并没冲谈一切,反而会反复想起一切....

2009-05-21T16:03:00.001+08:00

时间一分一秒的过去...

我对你的思念没因此减少...

时时刻刻想起那时的约定...

泪水不知不觉的掉下来...

`我们不是要永远在一起吗?是你告诉我的, 不是吗?`..

回想起当时天真的我..

现在不禁傻笑起来..

所有事情都已经结束了..

完了..

我不断地提醒自己..

希望总有那么一天..

能够振作起来...

做回从前的我...

但是..

无情的时间却再也回不到从前..

而我,只能站在一个遥远的地方..

默默地守护在你的身旁..

给予真诚的祝福

对不起,我爱你…

the valentine present for this two year

2009-05-16T10:11:00.003+08:00

in the end stil didnt hand to u...
i stil kep it...

this few day shot d...oways draw non sense..all couple want all pairs want...issh!!!
sumore draw on hand...but at least i hapi loh...
dun knw wat i think about...i didnt angry he with her anymore...
just angry he didnt company me sumtimes...

nice anot...but he cant see the real hand...

very lame to draw this...issh...

没有你的日子。。。

2009-05-14T19:39:00.000+08:00

没有你的日子。我该怎么过。。。

爱你也是我的错吗？

2009-05-12T10:47:00.005+08:00

我把我心都交给了你
而你在梦中却喊着他
就在你梦醒的时分
眼里还在含着泪花

是什么让你爱上了他
难道他比我对你好吗
如果真的会是这样
我也会把你放心里呀

我爱你你却爱着他
我的为你的心都碎了
是不是只有忘记我自己
我的泪才不会如雨下

这场游戏我真的累了
你可曾想过我的感受
这样对我公平吗

如果他能给你幸福啊
我情愿忍心伤了我自己
默默的祝福你和他

真的很想他会看到。。。
不能做些什么。。。真的只有唯一的方法？？？
默默祝福？
真的能吗？
为什么人家做到，但我永远做不到。。。
我的不甘心，谁又会明白？？？
到底我还能做什么？
就不能对我讲善意的谎言？
善意的谎言那么难讲？
错的不是你而是我没有尽我本分。。。

好难忘记那时的你对我的好。。。
有什么方法能忘掉？
又有谁能帮到我呢？

进样你能明白我的付出吗？
你能明白我对你的好？
你能明白我对你所做的一切的吗？
到底你能感受得到吗？
好辛苦噢。。。。。
到底还要撑多久？？？
真的不能撑了。。。
我撑不起来。。。

educated people behavior....bull shit...

2009-05-12T09:43:00.002+08:00

educated people behavior oways the good wan? i dont think so...
yesterday i see a patient die already...he is 43 years old singh.his relative all is educated people...they are doc oso...but wat they done to the doc...pity the doc...and unfair to the doc...

the doc already try his best to save the patient but at last he oso left...one of the relative try to hit the doc...the doc already try his best to save the patient...he try about 2 hours...but at last he left...not hte doc fault oso ar...he oso a doc y cant he stand at the doc position to think about it leh....too sad is not a bull shit reason...

too sad thn can hit people...when i too sad then izit i can kill sumone else? nowdays educated people is same like no educated people... first time see this kind of EDUCATED prople...more rude then a dog...dog oso know good or not good...

vny going to mad...

2009-05-01T09:13:00.006+08:00

recently is too boring...doing nothing...isssh...dun knw wat happened...haiz...he like then bother me...dislike then dont reply my sms...i knw he gt gf alredy...but he said pei me but no oso...

属于我的到最后都没有了

2009-04-23T22:14:00.000+08:00

我坚持的都值得坚持吗
我所相信的就是真的吗
如果我敢追求我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了不要呢

或许吧或许我永远都不要遇见他
或许吧或许我太天真了吧
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于风的那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的那就汹涌的
属于我们的爱该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢不要呢?

是他吧命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧他原来就在这里啊

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

歌词所说的我都完全没有了。。。

after heard he gt gf alrdy fel very hurt...

2009-04-23T21:53:00.003+08:00

haiz...y suddenly he tell me that...haiz...izit stil dil if him?
i dun knw oso...i think yes bah...how oso he is the most i love loh...
i oways tell him i dun wan share him with anyone...
but at last i stil sharing him with other girl...
haiz...
wat i can do?
i ask him to choose he want me or her...
she tell me that dont force him, and he said i knw he wont choose oso...
dun wat i can do?
i realy dun knw wat i can do...
bcuz of him how many times i hav to cry or how many time i hav to unhapi?
i hope i dun think about it but that is impossible...
wat i can do? haiz...
dil can be deep in love oso can be dangerous ill....

both of this two i oso got...

that is wat im oways tell myself but the end i oso cant do it...my hope is fully RIP
*RIP= rest in peace

alone stay in the darkness the only light oso off soon...i hav no more hope...

vny is FULLY RIP...DEATH!!! 1990-2009

confuse

2009-04-17T18:45:00.003+08:00

this three week didnt online...
wat im doing there?
i dun knw...
wat im think?
that day gt sumone ask me y i wan take this course?
izit want to help ppl or just bcuz of the salary...
she say ca oso can get alot salary...
but i think i two oso gt loh...
CONFUSE...
i dun knw oso...
she say it is very stress want...ask me y willing to take it..
now at new department i fel quite ok...
i didnt fel stress like old department...
she teach me many thing..
she will let do try to do new thing...
if i do it wrongly she will teach me...
last time at old department dun hav this kind of good TEACHER...
she will explain it very clear...
she will tell me why, what, how...
all the question she will explain to me...
even she dun knw oso she will find it out n teach me...
realy thx her alot....

为什麽人要这麽的脆弱

2009-03-25T19:47:00.003+08:00

对他的死有点伤心。。。我相信他已经尽了最大的努力。。但到最后，他，还是含笑而终。。。在他走时没有认陪他。。。他一个人孤独的上路。。。不懂为什么对他的死自己有很多感触。。。他的死也让我学会了人生的无常。。。因为他的死让他的父母伤心。。。因为他。。。他的父母将要付出他们的所有。。。到底我有什么能帮到他们。。。在我接倒他的死讯时，我被他姐吓了一大跳。。。我还记得我老师告我，他脑的组织以被细菌全破坏了，他不只是脑膜炎，他的脑已有痨病。。。有点担心他女朋友。。。毕竟他们一起了五年，当他昏迷时，他女朋友来看他都是眼含泪光。。。很想帮助他们。。。但我能做些什呢？看到他女朋友寄给我的信息，真的有点心酸。。。在他不清醒时，他问过我很慌谬的话，当时我还记得很清楚他的样子是怎样的。。。当我再问他为什么时。。。。他却变得答非所问。。。之后我问过他女朋友，他有没有讲过一些很奇怪的话。。。她告诉我他看见一个婆婆和一个叫小玲的女孩，叫他上楼上睡觉。。。楼上的床很舒服。。。听起来毛骨耸然吧。。。我想大概是他们把他带走的吧。。。有一次他更无理取闹的骂人。。。他说在他进院时有电视机的，为什么把它搬走。。。这大概是他的幻觉吧。。。为什么他会有如此的报应呢？他的走带给很多人悲伤，他的走会有多少人不舍？在他住院期间所交的朋友都会为他的死而感到不舍吧。。。还有他所有得医药费都是他父亲，到出问亲戚朋友借来得。。。六时多千的医药费与现在去世后要用的钱他们应该怎样付。。。真的为他们担心起来。。。但我还是帮不到他们。。。这可能是他因果的报应吧。。。我还是不能够明白。。。

稻香

2009-03-03T14:34:00.004+08:00

稻香 - 周杰伦
词：周杰伦曲：周杰伦

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什麽人要这麽的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

不要这麽容易就想放弃就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机现在终於飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了谁在偷笑呢
我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好
所谓的那快乐赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了谁在偷笑呢
我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

永远都是软趴趴的vny...

2009-02-28T22:37:00.002+08:00

actauly my agry face is how de? i didnt see it b4. live here for 19 years d...once oso didnt see b4...
how i angry oso i just will quiet n wont talk to that person i angry oli...
bcuz of that i easy gt bully?
y my sis can go her bf house? but i cant? y she can go out but i cant? what is the reason leh?
bcuz i wont tell out wat i want... they just said i dun knw how to control my owan money but did they think about my sis?
all the reason just bcuz my sis is garang thn me? she dare to fight back with them?
i realy dun knw about this...
i realy fel angry. i dun talk to them,but except this wat i can do sumore?
i rely hope to see my angry face? they going to touch my limit...i will boom out soon...when i tell this to my best freinds...she told me that she listen 1st...how angry oso wont garang like my sis...is that i want angry oso so hard? wat kind of sucking vny is that? angry os hard like that...oli one word can describe my ownselves...USELESS!!

爱到底是怎样一回事？

2009-02-24T10:30:00.003+08:00

爱是喜欢吗？
你爱他到底是对他有好感还是你喜欢他？
爱＝男/女＝锁头与钥匙...
男＝钥匙。
女＝锁头。
爱让人欢喜让人忧
当你得到他固然开心，当你知道你将会失去他时，你会后悔你曾经拥有他吗？
爱就像一把不能配对的钥匙。
当你知道你已找到你要得钥匙，你会选择永不放弃。。。
但如果是那么如意，这世上会有那么多人为情自杀吗？
你确定他就是你要的那一把钥匙。但他却选择去找他要得锁头。。。
那时的你还会对他不离不弃吗？
如果你不想当一把等待钥匙的锁头，就别做无谓的东西。。。去认识朋友。。。
爱是一个让人永远不能翻身的陷阱。。。
就算你能从中抽出自己，你也会是遍体鳞伤。。。

all is OVER

very kesal i didnt go...&!%&$#@ all this bcuz the BELOVED indian

2009-02-21T14:22:00.013+08:00

she is my lovely grandma
happy belated birthday to my beloved grandma...

all my grandma's grandchildren...except me...im nt in the pic...

see the pic loh...dun knw wan said wat o...

nice birthday cake...

my family pic...but...haiz...

cousin yang tercantik...haha but at sg

all grandson...

all grandaughter...

[+_+] 悲伤 + 伤痛 = 悲伤痛 [+_+]-----> from の俊良のChuN LianGの

2009-02-20T16:41:00.006+08:00

(^@^) copy from chun liang's blog...i agree with him...when start the love journey all the sweet word is nice to hear...but once break it consider die...---nice to see nice to hold,once broken consider sold----> nice to speak nice to listen,once broke consider death
在我还没谈过恋爱的日子，
我以为爱情，
都是天长地久的，
在这段恋情，我把永远的这个字都呆在我心中，
谁知道，这段恋情，比想象中更快，更痛苦，
一开始的承诺，一开始的一切，
原来都是假象，都是伪装出来的，
说好的，答应的，慢慢的一一显露出她的伪装，
戴着假面具的人，真的好恐怖，好怕人，
是我笨，是我的愚蠢，害得我陷得很深，
害得我几乎完全忽略了家人，
害得我几乎完全忽略了朋友，
害得我几乎把前途都摧毁了，
害得我几乎失去了方向，
你变心，比闪电般还要快，
我终于明白，你给的承诺都是假的，
我终于明白，我做到的承诺都是空的，
我终于明白，我们一开始就不该在一起的，
我终于明白，我当初应该对你保留一点点距离，
我终于明白，什么是叫做不值，
我终于明白，一切了...
牺牲了我的真心，牺牲了时间，牺牲了我的感情与精神，
到最后得来的是一场空...
哈！真的是可笑...哈哈哈...
现在的我，虽然心中还有许多的疑问，心中还是有点不舒服，
有时还会隐隐作痛
我会学着对你死心...把我死去的爱情...埋在深处理....

izit i need to gv up wat i hav?

2009-02-19T17:35:00.002+08:00

i gv up my st john thing...
i need to gv up my dream oso?
actualy wat i wat?
to bcum a nurse?
to hav a bf thn khawin no need to worry?(idiot)
i like cooking, i go learn sumthing about that?
nursing care i didnt fel i dislike it just i cant hav a good relation with my coworker...i fel very stress b4 i work, i fel very tesion b i work...
sumore i very fel scare..
wat i cant do?
i cant avoid it...
i hav to face it sumore...i hav no choice...
i can choose i will choose to do sumthing wat i like...but sumone oways tell me wat v like it is just like v can hav it or do it sumtimes..when i can hav it and do it?
izit my parents too strict or is my own problem...
all this of problem will make me think wrong way...haiz

stress...tension...haiz

2009-02-19T17:27:00.002+08:00

what i can do sumore...
actualy i scared get scold or i scare lost the work?
wat i wan sumore now?
i cant understand myself oso..
can i can do now?
continue stand it or just quit?
he dislike i work here...
but i dun knw wat my parents think?
they put too much hope of me?
izit like that i fel the stress?
tension!!!

valentine

2009-02-16T12:06:00.002+08:00

valentie oli present from sumone...
bf oso no present but he stil gving me present...
haha...happy but nt bf gv me..
cant upload photo...get it in my friendster lah..
blogspot 'siao' d...cant upload photo...

n/c i beg u all

2009-01-10T17:21:00.004+08:00

busy life with busy vny...
dun knw actualy wat im busy oso..
study? i dun think so...
others???
hapo my nc team dun make me worry alot...
i hope i can train them to me everything ok...
hope i can do it...
even they r my new member...
haiz...
my home nursing cert...
my adult 3rd year cert...
whereit is?
m'i worry about them? yes...
>>>>>>>>
realy sad to hear wat u all tell me...
im realy disapointed...
y i so useless?
can u all train more?
i dunwan lose...
this is my oli chance in st john...
i hope u all can b good abit...
hope u all de st john life wont b suffer like our..
hope u all can win
dun throw st john face...dun malukan my face can mah?
if u all lose i swear i wont go back st john anymore
i will quit...

this is wat i want...
wat v r doing that year...i wan the same...
i dun wan my nc useless...
pls cheer 4 ur own teamm...

my silly friends special mushroom...

2008-12-24T21:31:00.007+08:00

mushroom back to k.l n will back pnc soon,ahe will back after 6 month..miss her...
here is stupid mushroom n fatimah...

==(L) mushroom~fatihah~,(R) fatimah...
miss them...miss mushroom stupid face...

==tengku fatihah==^^ stupid mushroom^^

@silly mushroom face n cool cool fatimah...

==awi,nurul n zurin==

**awi,mira,kavitha**

friends ship 4ever**

last time at genting's photo... quite funny...even nt dare to play so much...

2008-12-24T21:20:00.007+08:00

quite happy over there...i dun knw how to describe..try see the pic n the videos lah...
:)

=my cute n cool cousin=

=see how the cold at outside=

==santa with all my cousin==(p/s: i dislike snap pic one, so i better be camera girl)

*sungai rejang* =damn cold after play water=

==xin yee==

damn boring...damn moody

2008-12-22T21:27:00.004+08:00

wat im going to do?
study?
tuition?
working?
blog-ing?
drawing?
listening song?
wat im going to do again?
recently i fel myself is lost d...
driving more fast thn last time...
music more loud...

i didnt change at all...
just that u r nt und me...
i dun knw wat im going to explain to u...
i didnt do wrong...
sumtime when im free u r bc..
sumtime when u r free but im bc...
that is wrong timing 4 us...
when imwith u this all thing wont happened...
when im back to my home all this will be happened...
i will said im chatting with my boy---friends...
i didnt...
i will said im sms or msn with my boy---friends...
i didnt...
wat im going to explain?
cuz u didnt see it, u will easy angry me...
if ur girl---friends call u? wat im going to do or jealous?
wat i can do bcuz her call?
that is ur ex--gf
i knw u didnt love her d...
but i can tell u i didnt do anything too over our limit...
i dun knw wat make us like that
after i go k.l thn u like that d...
i realy duno wat im going to do n explain now...
super super moody:(
now im oli knw wat is the unhapiness after couple..
but im realy love u...

im going to tell myself this...
but i cant do it oso...
cuz it my my deeply n truely love 4 u...
u r my last n forever...
im going to love u forever...bi...
hope u knw that im nt playing the fool with u...

1st experience

2008-12-22T09:06:00.002+08:00

new experience...
folow ambulance case...
very excited but abit scare oso
b4 going that i stil duno wat cases is that
as i knw the patient is restless...
i go with mani n yati...one malay one idian,n im the oli chinese...
wakaka...
even no picture 4 that but i can remember it oso...
very hapi to hav the chance to bcum vip...
all the driver gv us the way to go n v no need wait the traffic light..
like sultan come out from istana...
haha...

lan birthday...mp...mp...mp...

2008-11-30T22:33:00.007+08:00

fel my friends change alot...
sum of them working...
sum of them study...
thn how abt me?
i dun knw oso...
but im very hapi in the party...
share with u all sum pic...
steamboat at MP...

all of us here but sure the camera man nt here...

b4 v start eat...many food...muahaha

after...all is rubbish...cant waste food 500g per rm 10...kanasai...

lan birthday cake...nice but cant eat more...cuz super full that time...haha

hapi to meet them again, n hope them gud luck n take care
sure wont 4gt the most important thing lah...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LAN..

since long itme didnt update my blog...

2008-11-24T23:36:00.002+08:00

i think rdecently im stil ok...but tension loh...haiz...wan go out but cant.. everyday tired...n i cant go 4 he farewel oso...sumore i dun hav the fel to go...kakax...miss them
after that yum cha thn no go out jor loh...
when can go out leh...
damn boring leh...
ah lan birthday coming...
mom birthday cuming...
ah teng birthday cuming...
bear birthday cuming...
wai hung birthday cuming...
sure i bankrap nowdays...
haiz...
everyone worry about the money...
i think i shud save money fromnow...
chinese new year cuming...
hav many thing to buy...
omg...
lagi BANKRAP...
钱不够用....
see the movie thn u will knw HOW MONEY IMPORTANT NOWDAYS...
$$$$$$$$$
i need it....

F5 farewell dinner n ST JOHN 100 ANIVERSARY

2008-11-12T20:19:00.002+08:00

shock...y wil hav F5 farewell dinner end of this month?
but may i knw can i go?
i stil dun knw i can go anot...i need the letter they send to me
i realy long itme didnt attent to st john activity
long time didnt wear my st john uniform...
all my badge
my name tag
my special badge
wao this year is st john 100 aniversary, i can attent it with my full uniform...
st john is the best team in yuk choy even in ipoh oso...
i think in many school st john oso is the best team...
Hope ST JOHN will b all the best in everywhere...

his msn name make me abit unhapi n worry about him

2008-11-12T20:11:00.002+08:00

"heart broken...but happi.... tear droping... get hurt deeply"
his name from his msn...
even i dun knw wat happened to him, but stil worry him...as i knw he will leave ipoh soon...
i dun knw where he will go
i dun knw he go there 4 wat...
but when i 2gether with him,as wat he tell he going to sg soon n he will work there...
but i dun knw is real anot...
but hope he can get a new life there
hope hehappy oways
hope he take care himself.
hope he will b alright soon
i dun knw wat i can help him
bt i will oways support him...
actualy i very less chart with him...even i chat with him he oso nt realy willing to reply me...
may b is i misunderstanding, but i realy fel this...
haiz...may god blessing him n hope he knw i will support him oways...

P/S: hope u will take good care n hope u will all the best over there

MISS MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE,ST JOHN LIFE

2008-11-07T23:20:00.011+08:00

haha...since so long didnt update jor...shud b update everyday...but sure im lazy n i didnt do it..haha...
im damn tired til eye very blur...back pain...leng pain...
wakaka...dun knw y oso...cant und y...
suddenly so miss my friends...long time didnt see them d...

mee ling(my classmate...oways said find me but just gv me empty cek,P/S:dun angry ya..if u see this),my lui(we all said she lost jor...ah mah will so throw watermelon find u back,haha i knw actualy u r safe, just that u bc to working oli),jess(my best friends from standard four til now...haha...thank god that v stil on touch,but i fel u change alot jor),andrew(my hou heng dai,didnt ajak me go yam cha,but i cant go oso lah...)bear(best friends,knw him in st john most friend in st john...P/S:cy nt u is another bear,but same is polar bear),chee meng(v knw each other from standard one same class til standard 6 thn v meet back in st john...long long story),wai kheng(my vice in st john hope she is good now),mei kuan(can said ji mui,but oways rampas my heng dai),wen hao(standard 4 friends,clever n good...haha...zhu dai gor i dun knw wat to say...see jor dun angry ar),wen chin(wen hao sister,twins..nicen good friends),boon hui(hou ji mui in st john,wish her all the beSt in a acoounting life)

COMITTEE 2006-2007

FAREWELL 4 COMMITTEE 2006-2007

ANDREW LEE BIRTHDAY

~kin siew,kar wai,gah wai,siao thung,li teng,chang yee,mang chean,vee hun,khai bin,ka mun,andrew~
(p/s:my good member in st john...under us from 2004 til now...like carry u all out from childish,this social nt realy understand u all so much but as i knw u all r good now...just hope u all the best in spm)

@soh bell, kean hong,jun keat@
(under us 4 quite long time oso...jun keat,dun knw jie can advise u wat...just hope that u take care lah...soh bell n kean hong,the big jor...must take good care all the member in st john...n hope st john will likw last time os active lah...hope u all gid luck n all the best)

haiz suddenly so 'gam chok' tim...miss them alot...find one day go back visit them...
hope to see i all soon...

MEETING TIME...MARCHING TIME

NATIONAL DAY MACHING TEAM...CAN SEE WHERE M I?

STATE COMP TEAM...

SPORT DAY MARCHING TEAM WINNER

i think im okay already

2008-11-03T12:00:00.002+08:00

one day he sms me n ask me izit very angry about him...i admit that im very angry when he did it to me...but after few day i fel that im didnt angry much if no one mention about it...may b im abit 4getful...by the way, i hav to said thx to him...he make me fel sad but i get back my happiness, i get back my happiness from my ex...he make me that hav chance with another...even though he knw me n edwin's prob but i fel that he will treat me better thn anyone...i fel that im lucky bcuz wen im sad n angry i stil gt him that accompany me... thx alot but i think that v wont b 2gether loh...i dun knw y...may b i get enuf hurt from love...
edwin thx 4 break with me,cuz i get a new life start now... :)

b4 this i stil fel abt sad but now???

2008-10-28T15:36:00.003+08:00

i damn angry abt wat he do to me...
i dun knw wat i did make him said i lie to him but he is damn damn damn bad now...
wat happened? b4 meet v stil ok...but now? i dun knw wat happened at all...(blurrr)
he said me like this bcuz dun wan me disturb him? wat happened? can he tell me clearly?
can he dun like that? i very headache now!! very stress!!!
damn pain!!!
p/s: vny very blur,sad n angry now...
can anyone tell me wat shud i do?

realy realy sad...sucking loving life...

2008-10-24T21:20:00.003+08:00

I want to hav sumone
who will be true to me
sumone who will
understand the bratt me
sumone who will
hug me everytime i cry
sumone who will
tell me the story about his day
sumone who will
use his hand cover me when it rains
and lastly i wan to hav sumone
who will love me because of wat i am
NOT because of wat he want me to be

i hide my tear
when i said ur name
but the pain in my heart
is stil the same
although i smile nseem carefree
that is no one that missed u more thn ME

damn damn damn sad!!! fucking fucking idiot!!!

2008-10-24T20:48:00.002+08:00

after post the yesterday post thn many thing happened...i knw may b he mind sumthing...i dun knw whether he is play or realy...but im fucking sad now!!! watever he cheating me oso nvm...but i dun knw y b4 that stil didnt tell me abt that...i stil bcuz of him do so much of idiot thing...i fucking idiot nowdays...i dun knw y oso...y i will believe him b4 this...dun knw wat to do d...he cant face me but i cant face to myself...all the secret kep on kep in my heart one day sure will boom out...he lie to me or realy is the girl sms me? stil confused...he didnt make any explain...just said sorry? is that useful? i dun wan sorry just want a explain y he lie to me... after he didnt find me i cant work anymore...kep on seeing my phone...all my coworkers oso knw abt this...all oso waiting the result...all oso waiting wat he will explain to me...but i didnt get any ans from u xcept'sorry'i realy hope get a explain from u...until now didnt ans my call...didnt reply my msg...dun knw y...cant und...i shud accept the faith izit? just let it b? if tell u didnt sad didnt cry is lying...i oso dun knw wat shud do? put down? or stil care abt u? just treat u as normal friends? can i???? alot of question mark in my brain...im damn blur now...

新歌...但很好听...周杰伦－说好的幸福呢

2008-10-15T22:10:00.002+08:00

你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
曲周杰伦歌词提供再兴
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得
为什么这时候忍心离我而去☆..
p/s:after listen the song abit touch...wish u all after listen didnt cry...

scary!!! scary!!!

2008-10-13T16:12:00.004+08:00

dailure n stomache 4 one week d...at last i go see my m.o...when he press my perut i was push away his hand...nt cuz of geli...is bcuz of painful...i very scare pain want...i wan get shock bcuz he order the nurse to do blood test..omg!! i scare injection til i rather pain til die oso dun wan injection...actually all of the nurse is i knw want...my coworkers...she finding my 'xue guan' i very cabi want...very hard to find...cucuk 3 times oli get the blod...at m.o there hypor 1st time...after that they didnt take the 'zhen' come out anymore..just put a stoper there...omg...it realy realy painful...m.o ask me to admit...that time i refuse n they tell me is very dangerous if i didnt admit...aiyo...i very degil want...i stil dun wan admit...hahax...i rest there until the specialist DR.koh come n see me...the said must admit n he wil call my parents...ok loh...i just folow wat he said...he kep me fasting oso...cuz scare will doing operation after the ultra-sound...the wai kuan gv me an no air-cond room...whole nite cant slp...i walk back to my ward...damn boring...seeing my coworkers eating MCD...i cant eat...but that time im nt hungry...haiz...the suffer life in hosp...so hard oli wait til morning...

i back to WD5 that time they til me very hard to find me...i just kep laughing...cuz they want to do obsevation...just awhile DR koh cum already...he told me that need operation after see the ultra-sound report...omg...that time i very scare... i cry...after few min thn the nurse cum in n told me that i need put drip...haiz...i put drip to ppl many times lah...but ppl help me put drip is 1st times...haiz...it was very painful...cry again loh...i refuse d thn i ask her can dun wan put anot...she said cant...wtf...she said scare me fainted cuz i cant eat...i didnt put oso until i baxk to WD 7a after ultra-sound...

after that all coworkers come in n ask me wat happened...hahax...i oso dun knw how to explain...after that one of my friend come in tell me to change the 'baju operation' that time i very scare...omg...i see ppl wear it thn many time d but i first time wear it...haiz...it ready to operation d...wat i can do? i cant do anything...lucky gt all my coworkers...if nt i knw i will fainted b4 i do the operation...they joking with me...ask the operation threater staff to guess me who m i...sure they dun knw me...cuz i very scare go in there...anywhere i hav to go in oso...

after i go in i bcum more scare...i cry again...haiz...one of the staff in 'ot' i knw want...cuz her mother is my patient last time...an indian man...dun knw his name...but i stil very scare even he kep talking to me...no use want...they see me cry they kep tel me no need to scare...ntg want,just a small operation...4 me how small oso is cut me lah...omg...the 'ma jiu' doc cum in is make me most scare want...cuz it will be start soon...one nurse was kep talk with me...but that time i d hypor again...i dun knw wat i do d...i dun knw wat shud do...just kep on crying...the doc said just relax n look at the light thn will slp d...he said he will gv me an injection...i try to hide my hand that time...cuz i scare injection...he knw d...he told me just put from the drip's tube...nt cuck at hand want...

i see them d ready to do it...scary...the nurse holding my hand til i fully slp...i can fel it...n i cant fel they kep check my blood presure on my 'rt' hand...n checking my pulse at my 'lt' hand 2nd finger...that time realy realy scare...i see a nurse open a yellow colour thing...i cant see it clear but i think is 'gr' lah...'gr' put in my mouth to open my airway...kep me breathing...they put a mask to gv me oxygen...when put 'gr' i d slp...hahax...

when i wake up oli fel pain n my thoart very sweet...like eat sweet when slp...but fel like want to vomit too...i cant tahan the pain n 'ma jiu' nt fully gone...i very slpy but kep said pain...the nurse told me thta she already gv me 2 times pain killer...i just kept slping oli...when they want me to shift to another bed i oso dun wan to move...very slpy n pain...i dun knw how they shif me oso...haha...when i open my eye n fully concious 1st i was seeing is my aunty n all my coworkers...but that time i oso wat to do...stil slpy...that time i oso can drink cant eat anymore...haiz...but with drip wont fel hungry want lah...

but now i fel ok d...thx all the staff n all my friends...thank god to kep me safe...may god bless u all oso...

right here waiting..

2008-09-17T23:06:00.001+08:00

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter
I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy
I wonder how we can survive this romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy
waiting for you~

i'm sad cuz he 4gt it d...

2008-08-08T18:16:00.004+08:00

im getting shock cuz he was 4gt the song i send to him...im missing my dad alot...wat can i do? i dun knw oso...although i knw he stil care me...but i realy cant control myself...wat can i do? i realy dun knw...!!!!!!haiz...last nite i ask him to sing that song to me again...but he told me that he 4gt d...i intro him a song...but im sad that time...i dun kn i can find who to tell out all this...haiz...

下一个天亮

2008-08-08T18:08:00.001+08:00

用起伏的背影挡住哭泣的心
有些故事不必说给每个人听
许多眼睛看的太浅太近
错过我没被看见那个自己

用简单的言语解开超载的心
有些情绪是该说给懂的人听
你的热泪比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

用简单的言语解开超载的心
有些情绪是该说给懂的人听
你的热泪比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

时间可以磨去我的棱角
有些坚持却永远磨不掉
请容许我小小的骄傲
因为有你这样的依靠

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂
等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

sorry blame it on me..that nt ur wrong...

2008-08-08T17:57:00.002+08:00

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I've done things that haven't occurred yet
and things that they don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know

That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my sons
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there

Because I'm in the streets like everyday
I'm sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
I'm sorry that you had to go and sell those bags
Just trying to stay busy until you heard from dad

When you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn't agree

He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief

I'm sorry that I grew up way to fast
I wish I would of listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry that your life turned out this way
I'm sorry that the feds came and took me away

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
But they were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani

I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
And for the embarrassment that she felt
She's just a little young girl trying to have fun
But daddy should of never let her out that young

I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say

Why doesn't anybody want to take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I'll take that blame

Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
I'll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

that why u go away...the 1st song i send to U

2008-08-08T17:55:00.000+08:00

baby, won't you tell me why?
there is sadness in your eyes
i don't wanna say 'goodbye' to you
love is one big illusion
i should try to forget
but there's something left in my head
you're the one who set it up
and you're the one to make it stop
i'm the one who's feeling lost right now
now you wanted to forget
every little thing you said
but there's something left in my head
i won't forget the way your kiss is
the feeling so strong
we'll last for so long
but i'm not the man
your heart is missing
that's why you go away, i know
you were never satisfied
no matter how i tried
now you wanna say 'goodbye' to me
love is one big illusion
i should try to forget
but there's something left in my head
i won't forget the way your kiss is
the feeling so strong
we'll last for so long
but i'm not the man
your heart is missing
that's why you go away, i know
sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
don't know which way to go
there ain't so much to say now between us
there ain't so much for you
there ain't so much for me anymore
i won't forget the way your kiss is
the feeling so strong
we'll last for so long
but i'm not the man
your heart is missing
that's why you go away, i know
that's why you go away, i know

v wont d in parade day...happy...

2008-08-08T11:34:00.002+08:00

even i didnt go but i can felt the happiness...n/c are the best...i tot v will lose in nursing team..but now they told me they was win...happy...lolx...a/a sure win want no ned me wory geh...but a/c jao abit gek sum...let the team i most hate win jor idiot poi lam...marching like shit stil win...arghh!!! im so happy that u all shang shing jor...no need other worry jor...but i hope to join icc camp...y no one come ask me geh? at 2005 i d said i wan jin n i promise my team leader in national cadet camp i will join...sob...m i stil a cadet? actualy im adult 3rd year jor...but i stil 18 oli so im stil a cadet this is last year 4 me loh...haiz...hope can join it lah...i knw it is nice...s'gor officer told me that,that camp gt go k.l gai gai want...long time didnt shopping liao...i hope to see back all my other state geh friends oso...pang,my didi keong, kenneth ng,swee wai(sir ho) same name with my danny gor gor...lolx,calvin ng,lee weng foo,fu zai,kelvin tan,ykp,gt alot lah...haiz...hope to meet them again...miss my daddy alot ar...(my love will get you home) dun knw wat to do oso...oways think negatively n scold by gor(chin yang) i knw he scold me is 4 my own good...but i just stil the same...i cant change oso...i dun kn wy lah...i just will sms with him all the times...stil very very lovbe him...i think he knw oso lah...but he just can treat me as his sis loh...he oways told me that it wont change but i dun knw how oso lah...just hope he will knw tat loh...i gt try to accept other but the fact stil the same...haiz...anywhere they wont jor i very hapy oso lah...our duty hour stil get the 1st!!! yeah!!!one division can duty more thn 50000 hours...geng ar..!!!love them very much...remember the kou hao v hav...i stil remember abit jek...lolx...4gtful...haha...hope i can see u all ler...

moody dayz...

2008-07-26T17:42:00.000+08:00

ex bf chasing again? shud i accept him??? i dun knw oso...didnt ans him...very moody...dun knw wat to do oways...boring til moody...lolx...ntg can do over here..just eat,slp,online,chit chat...no more others...this year de life is meaningless...from the start til now...doing ntg oways...even get my lesen...but they nt allowed i drive...gt car oso no use...cant drive out...so boring lah...wat i can do...everyday so chat with him...but dun knw y i dun hav last time that fel...i chat with him when i was doing ntg...but that time he sure is busying...haiz...nt 'yam' timing...last time i chat with ubi(my officer in st john ambulance) he told me that my member very useless...once i listen i getting shock...flag day they want to sold 30000 sticker...lolx...thay tot thy are sticker promoter...the truth is cant sell finish...when flag day need to use the money that ppl derma to buy all the sticker...lolx...this year derma de money oli hav rm 3000 lolx...my spec already drop down...n it already spoil....1st times like that...so many year in st john 1st times like that...izit i shud scold them? ubi ask them y didnt told me this...they said scare getting scold wor...lolx...do until like that stil scare ppl scold...sumore v found out that 2 ppl was 'eating' money in our school...now v hav to found out few way to make him gv us the account book to see...i hope to fire this kind of useless ppl out of my division...hope will found out wat going on of the account...

at last v break loh...break on 17 july b4 my birthday...

2008-07-21T19:39:00.001+08:00

break with ason...stil gt abt nt willing but ntg i can do...quite happy in my birthday...dun knw wat to say...long time didnt update my blog...cuz i think it dun hav anyone to view...it just like let me said out my unhapiness n hapiness...

after my exam but i bcum pengawai ukur tanah...issh!!!

2008-07-04T20:39:00.002+08:00

damn boring here...oways doing ntg...wake up.online.gaming.eating.offline.slp.wake up.online again...everthing oso do the same thing...but this few day i meet alot of new friends in freindster...they quite nice...many topic v can chat...many thing v can joke...but v didnt joke too over...haha...abit happy when chat with them...last time when i online oso doing ntg...so long times didnt online until this few day i oways online...hahaha....dun knw hav wat to tell u all oso...haha...this few day quite 'siao'...but i knw i miss them alot...i long times didnt find them to come out d...last nite my best friends asking me izit lost in the world...didnt find them d...actualy i dun knw find them 4 wat...wan going out oso waste money just siting at kopitiam chit-chat 4 long time...issshh...boring...

after my exam d...

2008-06-27T14:24:00.002+08:00

this month i fel i no more mood d...very moody...i dun knw y oso...y will bcum like that? after exam i shud happy wert? but y i stil wil fel moddy? wat happened to me? i fel i very less chat with ason...our relationship bcum far n far away...his friendster bcum no more comment...i asking myself...izit realy liek him or that time i fel lonely oli promise will 2gether with him? is that real love? i didnt get the ans...cuz i realy dun knw... v long time didnt talk n contact...until yesterday i reload...i call him...but i dun hav last time taht mood to talk n joke with him...y will like that? or wat i fel is real? wat i shud do now? izit break with him???
i dun wan to hurt him...wat i can do? i fel he realy like me... i not willing to hurt him but wat i can do? except break wat i stil can do???
b4 exam i fel very stress until 2day...even i not more stress but i worry my result...if i realy cant get credit wat i can do on my future? very confused...i dislike study...but i dislike working too...wanna die...realy realy stress...

ason...i fel our relationship bcum far n far away...

2008-05-12T21:36:00.002+08:00

ason...this few day v less chat d...after i work thn v less sms n msn...at night just talk 4 awhile...if u go out with friends d v didnt talk oso...our distance too far away d...i dun knw shud break with u anot...i dun wan to hurt u at all...but wat i shud do now? i fel v shud nt continue like that...in real v just a couple that didnt see b4 n just chat in net n on phone...just like net friends...but i dun knw y that day will promise u to be ur gf...confused..i didnt regret to be ur gf..but the fact is v too far away...1 is from klang but i stay in ipoh...too less to meet...shud v break? i remember one times u tell me that u fel our relation like fake...that time i realy hurt...but now i oli knw it is realy...like fake...just said in sms n msn...but in real life u didnt see me b4...like that just will make each other more suffer...u need to work n need to take care ur friends n family...but u hav no time to come ipoh...i realy confused with this...ason, i think v hav to think carefuly about our relationship...v shud break or just continue like that u decide lah...

7th may 2008...

2008-05-10T11:27:00.002+08:00

early in the mornign i wake up n go to having breakfast with my mom...suddenly my mom tell my aunt my hapii zai was get cancer...thn i ask my mom wat cancer he get...that is blood cancer...as i know,4 human blood cancer will recover if hav suitable bone narrow...but 4 pet i dun knw... after that i ask my mom where hapii zai hospital...i wan go visit him...after i decide to visit him thn i go to work i decide this sunday mean 11th may to visit him...but when 11.47am...my sis sms me n told me hapii zai was pass away...i get a shock...thn i reply her impossible...thn she said:"uncle chang told me just now" uncle chang actualy is hapii zai de real owner oso my dad friend...he gv us hapii zai but he oways come to ipoh n see him...this is frist time i gt my pet but he was leave me...damn pain in my heart...whole day i sitting at my counter...my eyes was red...i sitting there quiet...i cant do anything even talk...i scare to touch my phone oso...cuz inside my phone gt his pic n playing car de video...he was cute...i miss him...but i cant see his pic i scare i will cry out at my working place...ntg i can do...just tahan til home...when i back to my room...i look at my phone thn i cry out d...realy hurt...at night b4 slp i act i dun knw about hapii zai was death..i ask my 2nd sis when hapii zai back? she asking me back...u duno meh...he was death...thn i ask her y, n she told me all...thn she told me uncle chang tell 1st sis that a gud dog wont die front of owner..after i listen this i stop sad cuz i knw my hapii zai so clever n care abt us...i must not sad to make him cant rest in peace...word 4 hapii zai...even u death but in my heart u r alive 4ever...no one can take ur place...

what happened to him this few day???

2008-05-02T23:03:00.001+08:00

omg...this few day fel he怪怪。。。wat happened to him? so scare me will rugi with my bf...in msn oways gv me kiss kiss...he knw i oli treat him like god brother...i oli my god brother lah...i dun knw wat shud do...shud i ask him??? i scare will make him 尴尬...wat shud i do...he knw i hav bf d...confused...last time when ppl dun knw us thn will said v r couple...but actualy v oli sister n brother...i just treat him as my bro...friends oways ask us 2gether...but he knw n i knw loh...even i slp one bad with him...but that night many ppl wont hav anything happened oso...haiz...wat shud do??? this few day owys chat n he oways said miss me n gv kiss...haiz...i oli like my bf...andrew...i'm sorry if u love me i realy wont 2gether with u cuz i oli wan him...v too friend d...too 了解 each other

dun knw y this few day like listen this kind of song....fel very meaningful

2008-04-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

每一次都在徘徊孤单中坚强
每一次就算很受伤也不闪泪光
我知道我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞飞过绝望
不去想他们拥有美丽的太阳
我看见每天的夕阳也会有变化
我知道我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞给我希望
我终于看到所有梦想都开花
追逐的年轻歌声多嘹亮
我终于翱翔用心凝望不害怕
哪里会有风就飞多远吧

不去想他们拥有美丽的太阳
我看见每天的夕阳也会有变化
我知道我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞给我希望
我终于看到所有梦想都开花
追逐的年轻歌声多嘹亮
我终於翱翔用心凝望不害怕
哪里会有风就飞多远吧
隐形的翅膀让梦恒久比天长
留一个愿望让自己想像

27-4-2008------28-4-2008

2008-04-29T19:51:00.000+08:00

fel moody...haiz...
wat happened to me???
izit he change or i change d?
y i fel he nt like last time when v start 2gether???
haiz~
when he birthday v stil like normal n fel ok...
y after birthday he will change d??? or not he change is me???
CONFUSED!!!
wat i should do???
when morning...im busy~
after he sms me i reply him thn i didnt chat with him until i free...
that day morning state com...quite busy...at last cant hav chance competition in national team...
disappointed!!
i d try my best cuz i knw if i go national com i can see him~
national com will at K.L
but i d try my best i still cant
when i back home...raining heavily...i walk back to my home...
all cloth basah...
didnt tell him oso
after eating my dinner n bath thn i call him...when i call him, 1st call he said dun call him he bc...i cant listen clear,thn he terus close...i call the second times..he tell me he at cc...SHOCK!!!
just now said bc but now at cc...
haiz~last time when he go out with friends he will tell me...izit i too care him???izit i 'bang' him d???
he tell me he dislike ppl control him too much~
haiz~
wat i should do???

28-4-2008
early in the morning...i wake up n go out walk walk...thn go buy birthday present 4 him...walk so many place d...but stil cant buy... very tired d...cuz slp nt wel...after 10.30am i tot he wake up d...thn i call him, cuz i wan ask him change other colour can anot...i wan ask him cuz i scare i buy it he will dislike...
i call the 1st times...he didnt ans...after 1 hour...i call the second times...he said he at ktv...one more SHOCK again!!!i ask him y just now didnt ans my cal he said he at ktv n phone set silent d...so didnt listen to it...
omg!!!haiz...i ask him when back home...he said 12.++pm
thn i wwait till that time...when i call him he said stil havent back...i wait again...wait til omost 1.++pm he said he at friend's shop...n i call him n chat with him...i fel v nt suitable 2gether...in phone he kep on ask me izit gt anything wan said to him...i kep on ask him he fel wat i wan to said to him...but he said he dun knw...i oso dun knw wat i shud said...very confused...he said he need freedom....he said like that izit mean that i too control him???wat i shud do???all his thing i no need care d??he said he need his friends...i didnt said nt allowed he 2gether with his friends cuz i knw im nt beseides him...when he was unhapi he need to find his frends to play n relax...at last i didnt tell out the two word...cuz i knw i realy put my ful heart to love him...at night...after chat thn he go shopping at k.l...thn i wait him back..when he back home n we chat again i fel better d...now v like last times...i fel myself cant dun hav him...i realy love him with my ful heart...

ngo 2008

2008-04-28T22:04:00.002+08:00

proud...the 1st times get nursing team n ambulance team oso get 3rd
the 2nd times our nursing team get 2nd n ambulance team get 1st...
lst year ngo make me very angry n i denda them til very 'gou li'
this year i didnt go back n train them but i gt see the movie...realy nice...but in the bus there gt abit paiseh thing...y the new 'kou hao' so geli one...
this year ngo competition at smk buntong...( actualy i dun knw where oso...just knw that is a place)LOLX
omg the headmaster oso crazy with u all...
haha...abit happy cuz u all can get this marching again n again...last times v hav to join other unit at school now oli st john~
in yuk choy i hope st john is the best init beruniform...
u all did it very year graduation st john oso get the award ( pasukan yang terbaik)
very proud...all the best YUK CHOY ST JOHN!!!!
the link of ngo video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NRqDe6Q-cKk

2008 agm~

2008-04-28T16:35:00.001+08:00

new headmaster...i didnt go the agm...i slp late d...4gt it ba...visitor want knw about our division is how de thn see the video... very gek sum...when i see the video...when in the post 'senang diri' n wearing full uniform can talk n 'you lei you hui' like shit!!! when taking group photo can take up the hand!!!stil gt member making his button!!!n showing bad finger!!!but nt all member like that... i realy angry with the video...
see the movie at here this link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JH7Xj2ArTBk

my new ajk cuming out d...

2008-04-28T16:09:00.000+08:00

my new ajk~
gt abit worry~when i knw it long times ago~but now i oli write it~

Pengerusi:har kean hong
Naib pengerusi:isabell
Setiausaha:foong han lyn ,foo yien hui
Bendahari:hu shian min
Ketua disiplin:Andrew lam
Ketua rekod:chow joo gin, lai wei wei
Duty master:lee joon keat, ou xue wei
Ketua stor:cheong kam seng, shum chun fai
Ketua papan kenyataan:phong hong mei
Jurulatih :1)shum chun fai
2)Lai wei wei
3)Andrew lam
4)Foo yien hui
Social:shin shy weng
Ajk:1)choy kah keat
2)phong hong mei

my new ajk list...every year choose de new ajk oso like geting shock~ i didnt go the agm~cuz i 4gt d...sorry f5 committe~ even my farewel oso didnt go~ about the farewel u all hav to ask my president y i dun go~ think back i very angry the social~ ddamn post~ like stupid~ wat i teach she all 4gt d!!!
dun care it wat function, must contact all member of our division~cant care abt ur phone fees! take the bil 4 me can charge it back!!! she didnt call at all!!! oli send letter! if letter can get thn sure die d!!!dun wan go cuz she didnt done her job!!! letter i oli get it after farewel, i knw oso dun wan go d...disapointed~~

hope this year de social 'xing xing ding ding'

last year gt many complain!!! arghh!!!
1st function after i take leave~
ngo marching competition~(president)!!!
nt enuf ppl find us to help them match
ok i ask all my buddy help them to match, when they gv opinion thn ask us shut up!!!
b4 thinking out the matching as us to think!!!
tot v r wat? need our help thn 'yao ngei you sei' after help them thn treat us like wat!!!!
senior?? ex committe!!!treat us like shit oli!!!
treat wat v talk like 'fat ngap fong'
so clever thn dun find us when gt any problem!!!

2nd!!! annual parade!!!
social!!!
ask me need call who to back...need how many team 4 one division
v gt 4 division sure is 4 team lah!!!
one team 30 ppl A/a nt enuf ppl mai call A/a de senior loh...n/a impossible nt enuf ppl thn go call n/a de ppl!! which nt enuf thn dun call!!! which enuf de go call them back to 'bai leng' meh!!!
ask her do her job better i take back all thing n do myself!!!
a/c n n/c impossible nt enuf ppl thn do do so much of thing!!!
when officer 'zha ying' thn push to ex committe didnt teach!!!
thn make me getting scold again!!!
wat kind of 'cha siu'
nt i do wrong at all but getting scold!!!

3rd function!!!
area comp!!!
tot who m i!!! no a/a no need tell me???
need exam thn dun wan go
suddenly 'fong fei gei'
a/c change all the ppl
no name list 4 me!!!
lose til 'da bao'

4rd thing!!!
officer n senior all complain!!!
y agm committe list didnt gv them!! booklet didnt gv!!!
all said y i didnt teach u all how to do!!!
wan me how to ans???
u all dun listen to my word???
how they will ans me???
cuz i too 'qian jiu' u all
u all wan how i sure let
wan play when meeting , i didnt said anything!!! infront of member oso play!!!
member how to think!!!
committe oso no disiplin y v hav to do so!!!
finer nail long til can kill ppl!!!
when check thn said i will cut when back home...when next meeting stil the same!!!
half u is st john t-shirt,long pants in black colour, n black palas shoe, n BLACK SHOCK!!!nt white!!!
y i can see commitee wear white shock!!!y i can see camp shirt when meeting!!! with other colour!!! st john t-shirt oli white colour!!! purple...grey...like unit beruniform meh!!! oli like shit!!!

no eye to see!!!
hope this year de ajk dun make me dispointed d!!
if stil like that i wont care all this again!!!
dun ask me go back to b u all de officer...
if nt i will gv u all 'gam shang gek sei'